People who've been reading my posts will know I've been trying to get reinstated so I can get back together with my girlfriend/fiance. The more time goes on, the less I feel able to do that. All the things I hear from the platform, and the things that elders have said to me just reinforce the fact that I want nothing at all to do with this organisation anymore. I can't make myself pretend to get reinstated, I feel too strongly about it now. I've recently moved into my own house, so I don't have to worry about what presure I'll get off my parents so much now. I feel so much more liberated and less stressed since I moved out. The only is what do I now do about my girlfriend. She keeps on saying how much she misses me, and that she'll end up just turning up on my doorstep with all her stuff, but she's also said that she'd rather I slept with someone else rather than if I turned apostate. She wants us to run off and get married, but I think this would cause more problems. I read someones post this morning(Can't remember who it was and can't find it now) where they said of a couple who admited to sleeping together and had to go to a 24hr wedding chapel to get married. She was in tears, and they had a lot of problems and a very bad start to they're marraige. I don't want this to happen, and also I've been married and had a very very messy divorce. I was in a bad way for a long time, and I'm not going to jump straight back into that position again. So how do I tell her? I've been thinking with telling her I've been posting here, and giving a link to my profile page/topic history ect. If I told her what I realy thought of the witnesses I think she'd walk away, but at least that would give me a clean break to get on with my life, but I'd be worried about what effect it would have on her. What do you think?
Paul
