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WHY do you have such difficulty with the idea that Jesus IS GOD?
John 1:1 (I know you probably know this passage, but I will say it anyhow)
In the Beginning was the word and the word was with God, and the word was God
How about 1John 5:7
For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the word and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one.
John 10:30
I and my Father are one.
John 11:25-26
I am the resurrection and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live
And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die.
now here, Jesus is speaking things that only apply to GOD. And yet He is applying them to Himself.
Notice, too, that Jessu commands His apostles that they be baptised in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. THREE.
Or how about John 8:56, 58
Your father Abraham rejoiced to see my day....Reead Gen. 18. Abraham saw JESUS.
Before Abraham was, I AM
Even momre basic....Many times in the OT, God is referred to as ELOHIM. INCLUDING GENESIS 1:1
Elohim, according to Strong's Concordance, means GODS.
It is a word made up of THREE words meaning THESE ARE GOD.
So the literal translation of Gen. 1:1, says In the beginning, GODS created the heavens and the earth.
And the Hebrew for CREATED here, is SINGULAR. So you have ONE GOD in THREE forms, creating the heavens and the earth.
By God's Word, the heavens were created; JESUS is that word.