Excellent reply Narkissos.
ko: full credit to you for coming back with a more moderate reply to the initial reactions your first post got.
You have many preconceptions I do not share. You obviously believe in god, and that the Bible is his book. You are very concerned at this point about the choices you are making.
Been there, done that, and, man, I can sympathise. Horrid horrid nasty. You have my sympathy.
My path has ended up as more-or-less an atheist with a belief in humanism, which is basically being excellent unto one another, just because. I suck at it, but I think it is an excellent idea.
Your path may end up somewhere else.
So your belief that my premarital sex and pot smoking (don't worry, I neither know or care if you meant anything to do with me) make me a less good person is based on believing the Bible say so and that is what god say.
Well, for a start, find me a specific prohibition against cannabis. You won't. You can't wear fabric made from mixed threads, or boil a kid in its mother's millk; they really were quite thorough, they didn't leave it out by accident... and, yes, it was known at the time in that area.
You might wave a scripture at me that you, in your opinion, says I shouldn't smoke pot. But that would just be your opinion. I'm sure you would rather we were true to ourselves (and do no harm to others) than orship your opinion.
And premarital sex? Apparently it was custom for the Jews to become betrothed and co-habit. If the union was fertile, they got married. If not, the woman was sent home.
Seems the customs of the Jews differed from the letter of the law; or at least of the law as we read it. Because how we read it is often just an opinion.
So, even given the Bible is god's word, seems I am not in the darkness of god. I live just as many have before me. I'm not Ghandi. I'm not Hitler. But I know who I'd like to be.
And I don't even believe in god, least of all in the YHWH Bible-god guise. Read the OT with an open mind and think of the mythologies of other cultures, and think of the state of civilisation at the time of writing (as in when proper scholars and not JW chronology-apologists think it was written).
It all gets rather obvious. YHWH was just a pretty standard tribal diety. Pretty succesful; even without Jesus we'd still have Jews, but then again, we have Zorastians too, and they've been around ages. But just as prone to sounding like a spoiled child as Zeus or Apollo. A very human, very petty god.
Then, some dude has some really nice ideas. He was a Jew. For me it is the important that the message that Jesus, whoever or whatever he was gave, of how to live our everyday lives, with love, is what we remember. Pointing the finger and judging just gets messy.
All the best.