Holly,
I have a feeling that you are starting to get frustrated with too many questions, and yet too much information to mill through. I sure do know the feeling. You are torn between the JW's and the ex-JW's. You are searching for answers, and apparently you are not getting satisfying answers. Relax and know that your doubts are not going to dissolve overnight. I think that you are trying to get to the bottom of your doubts and questions too quickly. Give yourself some time. Some people have been searching all their lives and still don't know what the truth really is.
Think about this. We are just human, and I honestly don't think that anyone can know FOR A FACT what to do regarding their religion, regarding which group they should join, if any..In the end, you need to do what your heart tells you to do. Since nobody knows for SURE, you need to find the answer which will give you peace of mind, and not the answer which will give you a truth beyond doubt, because there is no such thing.
If you think that the JW's might be right, and you think you can find peace of mind by getting baptized and be a JW, then, by all means do so. You have seen and read this board, you know their flaws. On the other hand, if you have too many doubts about them, if they don't answer your questions, then don't join, as doubts will only grow and brood. I wish, I really wish I could help you but I can't. I struggle with the same things you are struggling with. The only advice I can give to you at this point is to stop searching for what is true, and start searching for what brings peace to you.