Hi, Alan,
The complete and absolute hypocricy of it was shocking to me. Even though I had stopped believing in 'the truth' long before I ever found out about it... it was what finally put to rest any niggling little "what if they were right" thoughts that occaissionally popped into my head and heart. I had never come across any other scandals they were involved in previous to learning about the UN issue.
It was difficult for me to believe at first... surely they could not be so blatantly hypocritical. This was the religion that told me from the time I was a little girl that the UN was the wild beast. They were corrupt and a product of Satan the Devil. How could they be a part of it? It was unfathomable.
When finally I was convinced that it was true, it gave me a different perspective of the organization. Before I always tried to tell myself, and others when the conversation came up, that it was just another religion. It was so ingrained in me, from talks I grew up listening to, that they weren't a cult. It was instinctive for me to hold on to that... a knee jerk reaction. Knowing the degree of hypocrisy this took allowed me to look at the WTBTS in a different light and freed me to admit to myself the negative aspects of what it was.
For me it was a powerful nail in the coffin of ingrained beliefs I grew up with. It was frightening and freeing at the same time.
Jackie