That is awesome advice. Your words were perfect! I know that spirituality comes from within, not under the cover of a label or title. And I fully intend on obtaining that.
Thanks again!
In the middle of spiritual agnst, what do you do?
by ginger77 34 Replies latest jw friends
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ginger77
That's so sweet. Thank you...
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ginger77
You're right. Let me clarify...
I adore my mom & sisters. I'm the baby of 7. Those girls & my mom pretty much raised me & I love them all. They are all active JW's & me stepping away has really affected the closeness we all once had. My Dad was an elder for as long as I was alive. He spoke beautiful things off the platform, was well-versed in his Bible knowledge, gave outstanding advice, etc. However, behind closed doors, he was a different person entirely. Cold, mean, distant, controlling, domineering, you name it. He verbally abused my mother for years, as long as I can remember.
Then, with my self-esteem in shambles, I married a pathetic little elf who was a JW. He had a little anger issue, that coupled w/ my left-over anger from my stifled childhood, makes for a very bad combination. He got physically abusive, not to mention me allowing him to rip my heart apart even more. The elders concluded that he & I abused ea. other, BS!!!!!!!!!, and that I showed bruises b/c I was the woman/weaker/etc. I will never, ever forgive my ex-husband for what he did, all in the name of god. Nor will I forgive the elders for attempting to handle a situation that belonged in the hands of the police, anger management, courses, marriage counselors, etc.
So, while I'm angry at my father, my ex-husband & religion for seeming to support these two rats, I miss the girls tremendously, who have lovely hearts & long for me to return.....
Too much information??
Ginger
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JamesThomas
I know that spirituality comes from within, not under the cover of a label or title. And I fully intend on obtaining that.
You already have it. It just needs to be seen.
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wanderlustguy
I adore my mom & sisters. I'm the baby of 7. Those girls & my mom pretty much raised me & I love them all. They are all active JW's & me stepping away has really affected the closeness we all once had. My Dad was an elder for as long as I was alive. He spoke beautiful things off the platform, was well-versed in his Bible knowledge, gave outstanding advice, etc. However, behind closed doors, he was a different person entirely. Cold, mean, distant, controlling, domineering, you name it. He verbally abused my mother for years, as long as I can remember.
Then, with my self-esteem in shambles, I married a pathetic little elf who was a JW. He had a little anger issue, that coupled w/ my left-over anger from my stifled childhood, makes for a very bad combination. He got physically abusive, not to mention me allowing him to rip my heart apart even more. The elders concluded that he & I abused ea. other, BS!!!!!!!!!, and that I showed bruises b/c I was the woman/weaker/etc. I will never, ever forgive my ex-husband for what he did, all in the name of god. Nor will I forgive the elders for attempting to handle a situation that belonged in the hands of the police, anger management, courses, marriage counselors, etc.
So, while I'm angry at my father, my ex-husband & religion for seeming to support these two rats, I miss the girls tremendously, who have lovely hearts & long for me to return.....
Too much information??
The delimma you may come across is, what do you do when you know all of the truth about the truth, or at least a lot more of it? Yes, you can go back, and yes again, you can fake it, but can you look in the mirror and do so? Some here do now, Stillajwexelder and DY both have done so and can tell you better the pros and cons.
Do you realize the people who set policy know about these weaknesses in the structure that ALLOWS the abuse you suffered and PROMOTES even worse? How about the sexual abuse of thousands of little children, that will never be dealt with as it should as you have said, by authorities, not custodians and window washers. Personally I have a hard time promoting such an organization even by my very presence, but at the same time I have a brother who really has no idea the damage the org does. So when I go visit him I will shave and wear a suit and look like them for a week, if that's what it takes.
I could go all night with pros and cons, but the purpose in replying to you is to reiterate what JT has said...you are enough, you can be happy without an organization and even without family, only if you embrace the truth of what you really are.
A gift.
WLG