...you get all excited about coloring easter eggs at age 35 with your new worldly friends who have to teach you how.
Phae
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Why do I bother to wake up in the morning?
by punkofnice ini'm not suicidal just fed up.. i did think of suicide (briefly), but as there is no painless way and it's not something i would willingly do just in case things would have been better the day after.
i do have a slight grain of hope.. money problems.....problems at home (that's another matter with a son up court for something he is adamant he didn't do.
first offence but the pigs police and the cps have got charges made.
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Phaedra
Hi there, punkofnice,
You are heard, embraced, and loved here.
Your honesty resonates with so many of us ...
We don't want to share some of our true hidden feelings out loud here sometimes in such a public place. But I think we need to at times like this, because it is though this sharing that so many of us can connect together on such a deeper level and try to work this thing out called life after finding out that Living Forever in pure bliss in paradise was just a dream.
How can anyone pick up the pieces of such a life and worldview after 10, 20, 40, 50 years of being a JW? But we do and try.
We cobble together what we can... but the feelings of being screwed out of so much -- normal childhoods, going off to college, having children, etc. -- continue to impact and follow us around as shadows of our past. We have to live in the beds we made as JWs, eventhough we want to jettison the past -- and sometimes our minds and hearts -- as we long for the chance to begin anew
I can SO identify with how you feel in the morning. Nights are harder for me, winding down tired to go to bed, thinking thoughts and ruminating on what was, and what will never be because of being raised as a JW. Wondering what's next... what can I do differently, what's coming around the corner?
I wish we could all meet for a beer and chips and just love on one another tonite. Hugs to you.
Phae
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Anybody have experience selling on Ebay or Amazon?
by EndofMysteries inthere are a few collectibles i am wanting to sell.
my concern is that if i accept payment w/ credit card, etc, that i ship the item and they either open it (destroying the value), or just lie about not getting it, or any other thing to cause ebay/amazon to chargeback.
i was wondering if anybody sells on them is there a protection for sellers and how often does that type of thing happen?
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Through my work, some publishers send me new releases for reviews and stuff. When I'm through, I usually donate the books to causes I support around town (annual fundraising garage sales, friends of the library, etc.).
In these lean times, I'm wondering if it would be worthwhile to try to sell them through Amz. Anyone just do books? Would it be worth it you think?
Phae
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What Watchtower Belief/View Never Sat Right With You?
by minimus inbut their views on blood are just plain weird!
meat has blood in it even if it's bled.
still eating meat means consuming blood.
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Tresspassing onto homeowner's private property, uninvited, often rudly interupting them during mealtime or other family time to ask them personal questions about their faith, and while there, to try to put literature into their hands and reason them into my belief system, which I believed was the truth.
Then if they showed a hint of interest, go back again later and repeat, just so I could put an RV on my time slip and feel better about not being bloodgulity cause I shared the truth.
No wonder people hide when they see JW's coming!
To this day I never, ever feel comfortable asserting my own personal views on others, unless a mutually agreed discussion is happening with a level of trust and respect, and they invite me to share my thoughts.
I still get a panicy feeling thinking about door to door.
Phae
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Cool, cultBgone!
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Any seniors looking for association?
by cultBgone inlife is tough when you've spent your best years in the borg...how do you reconnect when kids are grown and you're close to retirement age?.
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:::wanders in:::
(Look, I know I don't meet certain requirements to join Gracie's Gang, but I have to tell you how it warms my heart to see all of this wise women energy and bonding going on in here!)
LisaRose, I'm interested in your diet changes.... I've been working on staying away from wheat and sugar, and when I am successful* I feel so good and healthy and sleep so deeply! I have a very physical job now, but didn't used to, so I'm trying to gauge my carb needs and find a happy medium to continue shedding unneeded weight. I don't know much about Paleo (I did read Wheatbelly) and it sounds like they're similar.
As I get older I can feel how much of a difference my diet makes to my energy levels and well being. A sure sigh-n of aging... so maybe I qualify for this group afterall!
Phae
*currently going through an unsuccessful phase.
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Phaedra
I'm having the same issue.
I researched this the other day and found a solution that involved modifying config settings:
http://support.omniupdate.com/oucampus9/support/troubleshooting/firefox-copy-paste.html
Here's a second option, an add-on:
https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/easy-copy-paste/
I haven't tried either, but will shortly...
Phae
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one eighth of jw's are regular pioneers?
by Truthexplorer inthat's what a brother said during his public talk.
i mentioned this to the missus afterwards and asked if i heard right?
seems quite a high number!.
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...and how many would even bother to put in all those wasted hours with heartfelt devotion to proclaiming the truth if there wasn't a status label attached to it?
"Sorry, I can't go visit old sister shut-in this week because I have to get my TIME in."
"Nice to meet you. I'm sister so-and-so, a REGULAR PIONEER for 20 YEARS from _____ congregation."
Phae
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I have made my decision
by Brother Mike ini'm sure most of you have read bits and pieces of my story throughout the last year being on this site.
i've decided as a human being, and as an adult, i'm going to make the decision on whether to stay with the jw religion or leave it.
i of course have many doubts about the organization which has lead me to do research.
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Good on you, Brother Mike. That you can even plan strategically for your future well being, even more so.
Phae
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daughter questions me about mothers day!
by Truthexplorer inmy daughter came home from school and said they are doing some cards at school for mother's day and asked me if that was ok. i looked and just smiled and said darlin, just make a lovely mothers day card and make sure to put lots of love from dad on it too .
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Ah, Truthexplorer, that's so sweet and affirming of your love to your daughter. What a great start to her life for a solid relationship with you.
I remember when I was in kindergarten in the mid-70s, we made a special Mother's Day craft as a gift to our mom's. I remember it being a baby food jar and paint markers or something of the like. It was so different and fun and anticipatory for us to be doing such a 'grown up' craft at age 6 to gift away as an expression of our affection and love to our mothers.
My parents were only studying at the time, but somewhere in the process after I joyfully made the gift (I didn't know any better), it was communicated to me that such a gesture because of this 'bad' holiday was wrong.
What a crushing lesson to a child who's only goal was to make her mother happy on a special day.
"Mother's Day" = Bad. Only in JW land.
Phae