Garrett...Welcome!
You are one of the lucky ones. The reason I say this is because you are so incredibly young. You have your whole wonderful life in front of you.
My family and I have faded. It's been 2+ years since we have been to a meeting. We are both born ins. We have exited with our children.
Reading your post is exactly the same reasons why we decided to leave. The hypocrisy, lack of love and climbing the JW ladder is mind boggling. It was not until we left that we started to read things like JW facts, Crisis of Conscience by Ray Franz and came on this site. That is when we learned TTATT (The Truth About the Truth). Once you start learning the false doctrines and failed predictions you can not go back. You will learn about how the JW's were affiliated with the United Nations. One thing that really affected me was a place called Beth Sarim. This was a mansion that Rutherford lived in. The story behind that is interesting and Crazy. Rutherford also drove 2 Cadillacs during the depression. You have so much to learn it's incredible.
The most important thing we can tell you is DO NOT TALK TO ANYONE about what you are leaning. They will DF you so quick it will make your head spin. We have each other to talk to but we also come on this site to vent and read other peoples experiences. There are so many people that are going thru and have been thru what you will experience. There are some really good people on this site. Some you may agree with others, not so much. It's ok...you gotta do what works for you.
Use your depression to fade out. If the brothers come around use the depression to miss meetings, field service, etc. Do not share what you are learning with anyone. Trust no one. Like you said...they ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS.
Take it slow and know we are all here for you.