While I can sympathize with you and having to be right back where you started, the reality is much more sinister and twisted.
Let me first explain why the push is now geared towards the younger generation, adolescents, the preteens, and teens. Considering the way things are shaping up with the generational teaching coming and going, the anointed number increasing, etc. The WTS is now trying to play catch-up with the technological advances, marketing, and the ever increasing independent thinking. The last Sunday talk I attended was all about parents and their children and how they should be respected, not spanked at the hall, yadadadada.
The WTS is trying to indoctrinate the young as early as possible in an effort to stave off what is all but inevitable and that is a decline in membership due to the availability of information thanks largely in part to the proliferation of the internet.
When I came into the WTS, I wasn't given a choice. I was brought up in it and expected to respect and obey my parent’s decisions. Recently I asked mom if she ever researched the WTS prior to accepting it as "truth." The answer was obvious, as she is also now doubting so much of the crap that comes out of Brooklyn. If you were born and brought up in the WTS then you were doomed from the start.
The reality is that the GB is not in it for the money or accommodations. It's about power, prestige, and control. Their twisted logic is similar to that of the rich and wealthy and that is we, as mere servants, cannot be trusted to make good decisions of our own. Therefore, we need to relinquish our minds, thoughts, emotions, and decisions to them, the WTS, in order to be saved from the big 'A'.
The power and prestige is more than intoxicating. To that end, they use it in congregations by continually applauding and announcing accomplishments. At assemblies and special meetings it's always about titles, titles, titles. Ever notice why the WTS finds it necessary to announce each speakers' CV before their speech? How about the announcement of anyone who is pioneering or has been approved to be a regular pioneer? How about those congregation party's for pioneers? The magazines, articles, books, talks, ministry school assignments, are all laden with loaded language, reverse psychology, and various other control techniques.
When I found myself back at the realization that the WTS indeed had been teaching many Biblical truths, I had to ask myself the obvious question.
Why does the WTS teach Biblical truths while corrupting and misinterpreting other scriptures?
The means does not, I repeat, does not justify the ends. When an organization does not allow you to leave of your own volition, it becomes a cult.
The WTS has become corrupted from within and while they may sincerely believe they are doing Jehovah's will, they are not.
This is completely obvious from the snakes, abusers, and corrupt elders and appointed men that can be found in any of the over 111k congregations worldwide. Not to mention how they are blatant in their covering up for pedophiles all the while destroying evidence.
You may think you are a recovering JW but in the reality is you find it difficult to accept what is plainly obvious. You are unable to function normally outside of the influence of the WTS. Seek professional help.
