I'm sorry for your loss.
My JW mom died a couple of months ago. She was never supposed to die. None of us were.
Still trying to figure this out.
My thoughts are with you.
my dad died of a blood clot as a result of surgery late last year.
to say that his death created a bottomless void in our family is an understatement.
i think about him every day, sometimes constantly.
I'm sorry for your loss.
My JW mom died a couple of months ago. She was never supposed to die. None of us were.
Still trying to figure this out.
My thoughts are with you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybujst8kozq https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgeojxtqtwc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxovacssahu https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/mary_tyler_moore.
watched the series from netflix about a year ago all the way through. wanted to learn about pop culture and the impact this series made at the time. great stuff. we're all evolution.
i'm interested in finding out what it was that finally enabled you to open your eyes to the real truth of watchtower.
what started me thinking, was the societys very own book...' 'revelation..it's grand climax at hand'.
i found that book farcicle.
the anon. of the internet. freeminds first.
hey all,.
we have purchased a bunch of great books recently, and one of them is from author kyria abrahams called "i'm perfect, you're doomed".
i'm only 5 chapters in at this stage, but i just have to share that this is a great read!.
read it years ago. was one of the first bios from my gen. B+ for originality.
title pretty self explanatory.. all thats at the top of the page is my screen name message alert sign out then the search.. when i go to my screen name for settings there is nothing there to change password just change the avatar.. we also should have the easy option of deleting our account [ and every post we made, totally if we need to].. advice?.
to all congregations in the united states branch territory.
re: discount on roku devices.
dear brothers:.
today i read at the xjw.com forum that ros died.. since the start of my internet connexion in 1997 i remember the topics of ros.. ros, thanks for sharing your thoughts.
you helped me getting ttatt.
i pray for you and your relatives.. gorbatchov.
Ros was there in the early H20 days. I'm grateful to her reaching out to me privately during the time of my tumultuous early fade 15 years ago.
I made up an email address for one of her groups that had my current age embedded in it: 26. I'm 41 now and that unique, life-changing experience will forever live through me. I still use that address.
The supportive network Ros quietly created safely caught some of us plunging into the dark nethers on learning TTATT. It was a waystation that helped me catch my breath and for the first time ever (before JWD existed), honestly dialog with others about JW issues.
Ros, from the bottom of my heart I thank you for everything you've facilitated for those of us stumbling in the dark and for the deep grounding and level-headedness you've incessantly modeled. Well done.
With sadness on learning you left us,
alias
i have been wandering around the board for a while now, and have decided it is time to contribute a bit of my history.
i have described my involvement with the witnesses as being from the outside looking in.
my sweet honey has been trying for two years to get reinstated.
JGnat,
What I appreciate about the gift of writing is, that once our words, stories, experiences, love, joy, and humor is put down in a shareable format, it can be enjoyed eternally.
That this thread was started over 10 years ago to chronicle a beautifully creative life (yours) and is here today for me to find it for the first time is fantastic.
I have read up to "Not Over Yet" and just felt drawn to respond. I am so glad you shared this, your gift with words, and your indelible presence.
You have a perspective on marriage to a JW that helps me immensely when I read it. All I can do is smile and be grateful that I'm not alone.
as a born in jw my outlet was always music.
my parents let me do piano lessons (from another sister) and when i was 14 i lobbied hard enough for a guitar.
i formed a decent punk/emo type in high school behind my parents back.
Cagefighter,
Lots of good, sage words here.
I hear you.
I am a creative soul who has walked many soul-crushing paths to sustain myself. But I must have an outlet for my creativity or I will die. There is no reason to be here if I cannot do what I was made to do.
And I do it. And I have a day-job. It took 25 years for me to get the day job that incorporates a place for that essential creative part of me to find fulfillment.
We are made to express ourselves creatively. Your longing for music calls you. Follow that. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. Satisfy that urge to create. To be in the music scene. Shut off all the other "voices" in your life telling you to do otherwise. This isn't about your parents. Or anyone else you have/tried to/want to please. It's about you. "I am miserable...am I crazy" is you telling you what you really want.
Stay away from the drugs. Listen to the music that wants to be played through you. Get the tools you need and just do that. Get the guitar you love. Spend time with it each day. Even just 5 minutes looking at it and thinking about how much joy it brings you. Let it in.
Focus on you and the music. Let you ego go out of this one, the other musicians, the cred, building a reputation.
Fit that into your life while your day job supports the passion.
Little by little it will lead you where you need to go and you will know what to do with the rest. Maybe you sell your business. Maybe you keep it. Either way, play. Express. Nurture your creativity. Do what you love. And love what you do.
Small steps. Just this moment. Breathe.
I'm rooting for you. So is everyone else in this thread.
Hugs, alias
since i've been off work this week because of spring break, i've really been missing my grandma.
when i have left wt (i'm fading and april will be 6 months) and i told her about january, she has been shunning me.
i told myself "i will respect her wishes/decision..etc" this morning i woke up and said "to hell with shunning!
I'm done with WTBT$ dictating all of our lives and even though they still are dictating my grandma, I'm going to be the one to show love!
You go, girl!