hi blondie,
i think my family love me, they never abused me, never shunned me, never anything, neither did the jw's really, they just believe their religion and i do not. i have nothing better to offer them than what they already have, that's what depresses me. i have no issues or anger to the jw society or my family, i find the whole thing amusing more than anything, my life hasn't been ideal but nobody's is, i feel for the people who were hurt, but i wasn't really hurt, or if i was it has become so much part of me that i don't know any different and i don't think i would change it if i could.
what i mean is that i have nothing better to offer my parents than what they have already, and that is depressing, no i am not depressed over it because i know my parents are happy, but it in itself is a depressing thing, the same as it is depressing for them knowing i will never go back to the false.
i am sure i could give them plenty of arguments to leave the jw's and point out the many faults, a lot of which they already know, but what for? they are happy now, and wouldn't be if i suddenly started ripping into them.
maybe this is the wrong topic. it's not a thing about jw's that depresses me, it's a thing about me, the rest of the world, my family and the whole structure that intertwines our lives that depresses me, but if the org wasn't there, i'm sure it would be less depressing.
dh'