hahaha, it reminds me of that movie 'frailty' where they dig a hole and kill people in it.
i would like a hole too.
lol, it's childish, pathetic, lame, laughable... but... i want one!.
http://www.cp-tel.net/pasqualy/hole/page1.html.
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hahaha, it reminds me of that movie 'frailty' where they dig a hole and kill people in it.
i would like a hole too.
the recent superstition thread got me to thinking.
growing up i was terrified of "demons".
sometimes when we would have witness gatherings they would start in to "demon" stories.
i was rasied a jw, and i always have experienced sleep paralysis, even to this day if i sleep on my back, it happens, i can induce it and make it happen even, for me it has a few extra quirks, like a sound i always hear, and sometimes breaking free of it and waking up and seeing things, be it figures or just shadows, BUT, it can all be explained rationally, if people want to mystify it, that's their choice, but having had this as part of my life for as long as i remember, i have no problem with it and i sure as hell don't think it's denoms.
the more time that passes, the less i even think about it.
i dont really believe in it but now and again i get a nagging fear of "what if we're all wrong and it is true" and boom big lighting rods and earthquakes come and shatter us all and i think damn and i almost beat jah on this one .
its so silly i know im right about my decison to leave the dubs but they psychologicaly messed with us for so long sometimes your like woah what if theyre right!.
i have more fear of hell than of armageddon
...reading a recipe book but never actually trying the recipes.
i feel that in a way thats what ive sometimes done.
i do believe that the bible is a guide on how to live but too many of us think that all we need is the knowledge and were all set.
they would realize that they are not God's chosen nation
of course not, jehovah's witnesses are!
to jehovah's witnesses elders: blood transfusions are biblically supported: acts 15:20 says abstain from blood but 1 samuel 14:32-5 says saul's army ate unbled meat to not starve and no verses show god not forgiving them.
christ says god also forgave david's eating temple holy bread to survive and that god wants mercy not sacrifice.
(mt 12) the may 22, 1994 awake tells of 26 jehovah's witness kids who died without transfusions, and by common sense in massive bleeding as in car wrecks blood expanders won't save lives http://www.ajwrb.org.
About 3 Jehovah's Witnesses die daily earthwide from the unscriptural policy!
6000 years and they will all be dead, not bad.
...reading a recipe book but never actually trying the recipes.
i feel that in a way thats what ive sometimes done.
i do believe that the bible is a guide on how to live but too many of us think that all we need is the knowledge and were all set.
i often read things that i have no intention applying in day to day life, lots of books have lots of wisdom in them, and i'm sure some people do live by them, but i'm not going to live my life around that, i prefer to make my own mistakes, that's the difference between learning and being told.
likewise with cooking, i wouldn't even buy a recepie book because it more fun to experiment
i completely lost it and could not keep the tears back and my throat choked with grattitude to these men and my country.
i had missed feeling patriotic soooo much!
pasted from another thread...but got me thinking, how much did you stop doing as a jw, not because you really believed it but because you could not do it and still be a jw?
being born in you miss most things and it's easy to grow into a very dysfunctional adult, and your social skills and ability to integrate are often affected.
it's easy to list the things from being a kid, no kid wants to go out door knocking every week, for hours and hours, have to do the days text every morning at 7am, family study every week, not be allowed to have friends in school, meetings 3 times a week, have to prepare the watchtower and books and parents check to make sure you have, give talks from the age of 6... dad was account servent when we were very young, so getting to bed before 11pm on a thursday was an impossibility, no birthdays or xmas, even though these were the same day for me, so now in adult life i celebrate nothing because it just seems a waste of time...
for a few years we were banned from seeing my grandma because she was a catholic... she is in fact the sanest person in my family, we were never guided in any direction for work or education, ever, so i guess we missed out there too... if you were to ask me when i was happy in life, i would say 'never', meaning i can't recall a time when i just felt 'ok'... so i guess i missed a lot of things that childhood should have been, but never was.
if the question is, did i give up my childhood... it's hard to say because what i had is all i know, i have nothing to compare it to except other kids i see, and what i would perhaps like for my own kids if i had any, i don't really think i gave it up, because it was never there in the first place, i just had a different life... i haven't liked it too too much, but to be honest i probably wouldn't change it.
(edited to add... i probably wouldn't change it, because it's mine)
do you welcome change or do you dread it?
do your fears of change ever hinder you for pursuing things that could better your life?.
the thought of big changes always scares me and i see myself avoiding things that would be a change even if it is possible that it will make my life better.
i welcome change if something needs to be change, i can't stand change for the sake of change.
just arrived yesterday afternoon.. this is my room.
it is the same hotel used in the movie lost in translation:.
here is the view from shibuya last night: .
yeah, have a great time!