Posts by Puternut

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What's the point of it all?

by Puternut in

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i have been here on the board a while.

posting away, commenting on other threads.

i have now been labeled officially an apostate throughout the circuit and district.

Puternut

Strawberry,

When you post here, it shows me that you really want us to help you..do we?

Yes I do want the help. I need to draw on the personal experiences of many. But sometimes I am a little fearful that most don't want to read what I have to say. That perhaps is stemming from the borg. When people with 'problems' moved in the congregation, no too many wanted to help or hear about their problems. And so it was left for the elders to deal with them. I have given so much while I was an elder, and never took much. I am realizing it's ok for me to ask for a helping hand now. Maybe it was a guy thing or pride. But screw that logic, it doesn't work. So now I am starting to feel comfortable with many of you here that have helped me. And my PM box is full of good people sending encouragement my way.

Thank you all for doing that. I hope to return the favor someday.

Puternut

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Did you ever experience "Joy"?

by Pork Chop in

one thing that always struck me was the rather dour nature of the organization.

i know people laugh, and at seem to have a good time, at least occasionally.

however, one thing i just haven't seen is a real outpouring of joy, like david dancing like a crazy man or some of the other occassions in the scriptures when it seems like people were almost overcome with joy.. anyone here ever feel real joy as a witness?

Puternut

Lets see,

Five meetings a week. Preparation, Research, Field Service, Talks, Assemblies, Conventions, Sheperding Calls, Committee Meetings, Elders Meetings, Hospital Laison Committee, Kingdom Hall projects, Elders Schools, Family Study, Informal Witnessing, Rehearsals........... NO there was no time for 'joy' !!!

Puternut

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Disfellowshipping Is A Protection

by Sunspot in

the hideous and cruel practice of disfellowshipping is for protection!

but---the only "protection" it affords---is for the watchtower society.

period.

Puternut

Sunspot,

You make some good points. And what you mention is correct.

For those still under the spell of this psuedo-religion, it's time to "Awake!" up and get OUT from among them!

It's unfortunate that most still have some 'roots' in the borg. Like family and friends that are still in. So getting out is not the hard part. The hard part is having family, that is being held hostage within the borg. It would be nice if we could just forget about this organization. But this institution will be on our minds for the rest of our lives, and fester for a long time, as long as we have loved ones, that are stuck in it.

Puternut

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Anyone up to sharing a drink with me?

by codeblue in

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ok...it's only 3:34...i am mixing me a drink, anyone else want to join me?.

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Puternut

Burp, .....excuse me. But did I miss this party somehow?

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What's the point of it all?

by Puternut in

jw
friends

i have been here on the board a while.

posting away, commenting on other threads.

i have now been labeled officially an apostate throughout the circuit and district.

Puternut

I am not depressed today. I am just having a reflective day. I am deep in thought, and have some questions, that I don't even know how to ask. I am a typical man that want's to 'fix' things. And sometimes I am impatient with myself for not being able to come up with answers.

Over the course of time I have had to surpress so many feelings and questions, they are starting to require some attention.

Puternut

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Anyone up to sharing a drink with me?

by codeblue in

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ok...it's only 3:34...i am mixing me a drink, anyone else want to join me?.

.

Puternut

I'll have another one. I have been drinking since lunch. Mostly light stuff.... Moose Drool.

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I'm so high, i don't know whats goin on

by dustyb in

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actually i'm not high.

but tonight is the co visit and g/f wants to skip meeting again.

she said she didn't care anymore, but i still don't know whats goin on..... i'm just gonna sit w/ her tonite and ask if there's anything on her mind, but...

Puternut

Dusty,

Good to hear from you again. I have been wondering where you have been. Hang in there buddy. It takes a while before the real 'truth' becomes clear.

Puternut

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What's the point of it all?

by Puternut in

jw
friends

i have been here on the board a while.

posting away, commenting on other threads.

i have now been labeled officially an apostate throughout the circuit and district.

Puternut

outoftheborg,

You make some good points. It's about lost identity, I am still de-culting. There are some nagging things hanging in my head that haunt me. I know I have to unthink the borg's thinking. But I was in it for 26 years, and at times still think like a dub. It's amazing how powerful that thinking has saturated my mind. I am not one to attack the borg, but I have some very deep anger in me, that kicks me at times.

I have been married for 25 years, and had two girls with me. Now that is all gone, overnight...poof. So thanks for understanding where I am coming from. Did I already know this? Actually somewhat, but forgot to remind myself of it. Thanks for telling me this again. Point well taken.

Puternut

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What's the point of it all?

by Puternut in

jw
friends

i have been here on the board a while.

posting away, commenting on other threads.

i have now been labeled officially an apostate throughout the circuit and district.

Puternut

Codeblue,

I know we have talked so you know what I am talking about. When we were in the borg we had a 'certain' direction. Now what we are out, we have to figure it out on our own. That's were I am now. Not knowing where to go from here.

Big Tex,

I have validation also. As to where I came from with the borg. Now that I have a better perspective on the borg, I know where not to be. But I don't know where to be as of yet either.

Franklin J,

You're a good man. You always have nice things to say. And I value your imput since you've been out a while. You have rebuild, and no doubt it took sweat and tears to accomplish that. I am just not there yet......

Lyineyes,

I have made some really good friends as well. But I only have met a few of them in real life. I am just rebuilding right now, so I know it takes time.

Snapdragon,

No I am not looking for advice....lol. Just feeling out others to see why they are here and what they are getting out of posting here. You asked me about my spirituality. I have none. I have lost all hope in any organized religion. I don't even know if there is a God/ess. I have been betrayed by the borg and now will not accept anything spiritual. It hurts too much. Am I alone? Yes very much so.... No friends other than the ones here. All my family are dubs.

Sixofnine,

Not really asking what is the best way of life. I was just wondering if many that post here are getting what they are looking for. I read many posts, and see how others cope. And we all relate. And we all know it takes time. But I was wondering what hurdles others have overcome.

Gespro,

It seems we are alike. There are days and there are days. One day you think you have some answers to your troubles. And the next day, one wonders, what the hell am I doing. Or were do I go from here. Perhaps it's the moon faze or not, I don't know

Puternut

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When will the world End?

by Spooner in

i was just wondering when the jw teach the world will end?

cuz wasn't it supposed to be in 1914 or something?

Puternut

The world ended in Noah's day. We are now in the Last Days and that will end too. Then there will be another end in the Millinium. And another one after that. And another one after that.........

Puternut