Agnositic and leaning towards atheist (used to believe in God before I became a JW) but presently have a bad taste in my mouth for most things religious. I do now enjoy reading/listening to some inspirational "feel good" literature and tapes. JWs were always opposed to "feel good" self help stuff and I would always have to feel guilty when I was a JW if I was looking at things of this sort. Deepak Chopra is someone I have been reading and listening to as of late. I take it all with a grain of salt now, but some of it I find intersting and inspiring in a postive direction. I would say I am religiously confused, but still interested in humanity and being a positive influence and helpful person to others I encounter in my life.
cyber-sista
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How Many XJWs Who's Christianity Is Now Progressive In Nature?
by Eden infrom my observation of walking away from the org eight years ago..it seems..that most xjw's are either fundamental protestants...or on left side as athiests.....so, i was wondering, any xjws here who's christianity is now progressive (non-fundamentalists) in nature?
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jw speak, I'm just maintaining. ever here this ?
by johnny cip ini know a bunch of jw's for over 30 years , and most of them aviod me , they hate getting twisted into a pretzel.
but some of them do talk with me .
and i allways ask them how are you doing?
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I hear...
Oh, we're just hanging in there...The pressures of this old system is weighing heavily on all of us--everyone in the congo is being attacked in one way or another. Satan knows his time is short now. We just have to hang in there to the end. We really need the new system now.
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I THINK I'VE FINALLY BEEN PUSHED OVER THE EDGE (aka.... i'm out)
by JV ini think that i've finally been pushed off the edge, just imaging me hanging on to the wtbs by one hand, as if i'm hanging off a cliff.
a couple of months ago i was hanging on by two hands, mabey even pulling myself back on the band wagon so to say.
but after finding out about the lies and what goes down in the congregation, with the "young ones" all the hipocracy, i've been reduced to hanging on by a finger, like something out of a wiley e coyote movie, i don't feel like finishing the story tonight, but just some events happened tonight that just pushed me off the edge, i'm closer tonight than i've ever been to saying " screw all of you i'm finished" anyways i'll continue some other time
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JV,
We've all been there and done that here. That transistion point is very disconcerning. I knew the WT was bogus for a long time--was in denial for several years, but even when it finally hit me over the head I still attended meetings and faked along for about a year. Old habits ingrained in me over the years, I imagine. Anyway, I remember that inbetween place--it hasn't been that long along where the mind is saying "no" but the body still shows up at the KH and prentends to be JW. Lots of support here for the transition stage. Take care and be good to yourself.
Love,
Cybs
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Hello
by LadyExWay ini would like to introduce myself, i am a former member of the way international.
i came here from a link that refiner posted at a board for ex-way people that i occassionally read.
i was hoping to be able to join a few discussions.
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Lady X,
Welcome! I am looking forward to hearing more of your insights in further postings. Sounds like your experiences were much the same as what most of us have experienced here, being a part of a high controlling religious organization. Am interested in reading more about your experiences. This has been a good place for me to come and heal and purge out some of the spiritiual junkfood my brain was fed for over 20 years.
Love,
Cybs
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I had a visitor!!!!!!
by Sunspot inwhoooeeeee!
about 10 minutes ago i had a visitor!
she was a sister that we used to pal around with, we had several dinners together and she and her husband and my husband played cards together.
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I love it Annie! Congrats and enjoy a renewed friendship with a fellow voyager!
Love you,
cybs
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June 15th WT - AJWRB/Dr. Muramoto
by Lee Elder inby now most have heard about or had opportunity to read the june 15, 2004 watchtower.
the article will be added to the ajwrb web site shortly.
lee elder .
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A question--what is AJWRB's ?
Great article. Putting this one on file. This is probably the thing that bothers me most (besides the whole Dfing thing) My sis is still in with her hubby and kids and I hate the thought of anything happening to those kids where they might need a transfusion. I know would have to step in then and plead my case. It is hard to just let them be as they are when it come to the blood issue--if it was just a harmless belief system it would be a different story, but this religion is a killer when it comes to this teaching about blood and there is still a potential for my family members to die in the hands of this wakko religon.
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May I look inside your heads for a moment?
by SwampThing inhello again, forum members.... well, as many of you have suggested, i?ve been reading, and reading, and reading... i?ve even purchased the book several of you recommended, "crisis of conscience.
" it should be delivered next week.
some of your stories are absolutely heart-wrenching.
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Thoughtful topic Swamp thing.
Why did I turn myself over to the WT in my adult years? I think many of the posters here have echoed much of what happened to me, but here's my list
Raised by a mother who was aloof and disconnected--Father who had anger and alcohol problems--never felt loved or appreciated growing up. Grew up depressed, confused and suffered from low self esteem.
Turned into an idealistic thinker in the 60s and 70s, but was disillusioned with the whole movement after a while.
Was suffering from post partum depression after my daughter was born (when I was first dragged into the Org) and didn't wanted to give her the best life I could without all the things I had experienced. I also loved her so much and the question was planted in me--you want your baby to live don't you? Of course I did!!!
After that I was promised love and friendships and support and a program that would help me to be the best wife, mother, friend and all around better person (Christlike). I was also promised "somewhere over the rainbow" the promise of paradise and all good things to come. And all I had to do is take the red pill and remain in a denial state of mind forever, but some 20 years later I took the blue pill and here I am shocked back to my senses and still picking up the pieces.
cybs
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JW's commit the biggest sin IMO, wasting time pretending that...
by Fleur inpeople who are alive, are dead.. in their half witted brain washed wtbts indoctrination, they are taught that they have to shun people they love if they find themselves out of the borg's good graces.
doesn't matter what the 'crime' is, could be simply disagreeing with something in a wt article, could be any one of a million things.
it's not always the "big f" that gets people disfellowshipped.
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Fleur,
I think of this every day. My sister shunning her 2 beautiful sons, probably for the rest of their lives, if she doesn't wake up and leave her cult religion behind. I remember what a good mom she was to them and how much she loved them. They used to be so precious to her. I look back at our family pictures and I see them all together cuddling in the big easy chair and it tears me up. What happened to my sister? How can a once loving mother harden her heart to her own children. Will she waste all those years being apart from them and wake up one day and find out it is too late? The influence of the JW cult is great and so dangerous to all that is human and sacred.
I am sorry for all the pain it has caused to everyone and I apologize for ever being a part of it.
Love you all,
cybs
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Unseen Spirits do they help us or do they harm us?
by Celtic indoes anyone else remember this booklet?
if you do remember studying it as a child, what were the affects of this study on your imaginations?
how did this booklet play your fears?
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Sleep paralysis sound a lot like "night terrors." My nephew was diagnosed with "night terrors" as a child and experienced these frequently--a similiar state to sleep walking, but mixed with a state or terror. He later grew out of them, but it is not uncommon. There are many trauma experiences (Post traumatic stress syndrome) where people relive bad experiences and have visions, such as in the war, etc. Many mental illnesses/ brain chemical imbalances, sleep disorders can bring on delusional thinking and even visions--along with certain diabetic states--medications--etc, etc. The JW religion is obsessed with demons. Seems like the more unbalanced ones were those who had these "visions." Most of the more stable ones did not talk about these demon visits. I am convinced the religion of JWs causes trauma to children with their teachings. This coupled with the mental state of their parents and how the religion is presented to them during their youth could cause the kind of trauma it would take to induce these delusional states of mind.
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On Vacation No Review but Good News
by blondie in.
i'm taking a break this weekend from the wt review.. the good news is i found a new job, a small office, and i will be back in the law enforcement field.
it will be nice to get away from the stress and overwhelming workload i face each day on my current job and away from the watchful eyes of 2 active jws.. we are going to 2 separate firework displays this weekend and spend some time with the in-laws working in the garden and playing some cards.. hope the weather cooperates here and in your area.. blondie
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Congrats Blondie...
Missed your review this weekend, but glad you for your good news too!
Love,
cybs