today i drove my daughter nancy to shool after the incident last night to ensure that she was ok. she never showed up to her first class, but took a bunch of pills she pilfered from her mother's bathroom a couple of weeks ago.
she was discovered, and i was called.
i took her to the hospital right away.
i was just thinking about how so many were so caught up in the dubs for so many years, and at the time we probably would have all felt that the truth and spreading the good news was our passion.
so what is your passion now?
what makes you tick and excites your senses and captivates you?
Like others have said I have a lot of passions in life right now. Being free of many binds and able to take advantage of that freedom is a good thing.
Children are my first passion,Believing in them.Guiding them to believe in themselves. I think all adults that are able should protect children.
Then there are many adults in need of protection from a past that was abusive to a now that is abusive. All need compassion and kindness.
It takes a lot of us many times to learn that there are people out there who take advantage and use. Trust is an earned thing. Learning who to trust is difficult to discern.If not impossible until we learn that skill.
BEM
If I may here is a poem borrowed from a Native American Childrens program.About Culture being the great teaching tool it once was.
Frieda J.Jacques
it's driving me nuts.
the guy sounds like elvis, but it's not, the song was a hit, i believe in the early 70's.
dammit!!
today, i was on the scene of the local congregation of jw's where my ex-wife and her husband attend.
physical, emotional and mental abuse has been purpetrated upon my kids for eight years now.
they have been victims of alcoholism, verbal bashings and they have been made to watch their stepfather beat the hell out of their mother and then be halled off to jail without saying a word to anyone for fear fo reprisal from him and their mother.
(((Corvin))) ((((your children)))). Good dads are hard to find. I feel for you and your children.
Very articulate and to the point of what your real concern is that being your children.
BEM
i really can understand the meaning of hate now........ i truley hate what the cult of the watchtower has done to me and my family.... my son was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 20,,,,(his uncle on his dads side also had the disease around that time ))) as some of you know he ended up in jail and a prison term because of things he did while in his schizophrenic state....all the while he was disassociated from the witnesses ,,,so he received no help from the loving elder body ( of vipers)....even when he was in jail,, an elder came to study with the lost ones... and because he knew of my sons situation would not allow him to comment at the prison study.....
but he goes faithfully and sits by himself in his tattered clothes in the back....as we all know the drill....some how he gets back in.... i am devastated..as i have 3 children who never will go back because of their sadistic ,, annointed father and stepfather......who molested his own daughter.....( another horrible story)l its hard for me to write ,,, i hope you will put up with me ,, those of you who know me and even those who dont...this is my therapy... i must write it out....well as it goes he is not welcomed back.. its all for show,,,he cant stop smoking....and so he goes off his meds and is living in the streets...with no help or support from the brothers ,,,a term i use very loosely....he missed the district convention,, because no one could find him and then ......they find him to corner him like a rat (knowing fullwell of his mental condition ) and they disfellowship him......the anger and rage that i feel...is uncontrollable at times......i hate ,, i hate ,,,, i hate so much of what they did to me and sooo many other ss ......forgive me ....this freaking cult needs to be destroyed... once and for all,,, and i will not rest until i rescue my last child from its grip.......( i have one daughter whos 18 that is still in)))) i am cryingso hard now its hard to type,,thank you for hearing my story,,, its just a very small part of what me and my family have been thru ...thanks for listening and peace to you my dear friends...
(((((Wildfire))))) (((((Dede))))) (((((jgnat))))) ((((the rest of you)))) ((((group hug as we cry together)))) My heart goes out to you.
I'm glad that you have a safe place with safe people to express your self and know that there are folks that have similar problems but may handle them differently.Gives us balance when offered with love and understanding. knowing also that trust is an earned thing.
I feel fortunate to have my children near and safe.out of the wts.They all three and my son-n-law have migrains.( I rarely have a head ache) It always seemed like they had them worse at assemblies and conventions the lights always affected them,but they never tried to stay at motels/hotels. Never kept them away or anything..Just now I wonder if the environment makes them worse.Not just the assemblies and that stress but the entire farce. They were willing to go even when they were having sick head aches makes me feel sad for that...
I do know depression.So mental illness would be difficult to deal with as you watch a loved one try to please an un-loving congregation that has no clue to what empathy is none less sympathy. And only knows about conditional love.
BEM
i am wondering... how did you first come across this board?
..... searching the web?
a friend?
I had just been"allowed" <ex-husband} to get the the internet.I was disallusioned,sad,hurt and needed information to keep my daughter from returning to the KH because of her three year old and she didn't want her to be "destroyed" ,Typed in JW... checked some of the sites out.Massive reading ... Liked this one and joined. April,2004.Just a few days after finding the site. The sexual abuse info from other sites,the personal friendships. from this site helped my family (except the ex-hubby) Learn to see the WTS for what we already thought it was anyway another corrupt religion.
BEM
got a call from xw a little while ago.
she was on her way to the hospital.
not sure what the problem is but she didn't sound too good.
Sheila and Thunder tell her I'm thinking of her...
((((((((((((XW))))))))))) be well soon dear..
BEM
there are so many examples of jw unkindness to df'd ones and apostates.
one that really jumps out is one i've heard about a single df'd mother with small kids broken down outside a kh, and no one stopped to help her.. the jews and samaritans came from the same background.
they had several different beliefs and the jews no doubt considered them apostate.
Very sad indeed that they would help criminals.Drug addicts/dealers. Cover for the pedophile in the midst of them .love them there neighbors."brothers".....but not help this woman in need that at one time was considered in the "middle" of the congregation we can be sure. Where exactly is the love in this? This conditional love that is so un-loving and un-kind.
Good thoughts for me Avishai.I have endured seeing folks go through such treatment and was part of my un-doing with the wts.
BEM
this is cassidy.
he's sooo sweet.
he's getting used to his new home and his name etc.
Awwwww XenaWarrior....Ain't that nice he's so cute and I bet narry a stretch mark either.
Laughing @ wassasis and her kitty tale
Bem
when a girl reaches the age of puberty or physical maturity, her.
body has developed in the matter of sex more than in the mind.. young folks like to be together, first in groups, later in twos.. if they have not been instructed by their parents in regard to the.
permitted, because the female is not in physical condition to breed.. the bull seems to understand this and keeps in his own place.
Badboy that was too funny ty for bringing it bttt.
