I had two children, but really wanted more. I was just too afraid to bring more children into the world as armaggedon was coming "soon" and it was such a responsibility.
First I didnt know for sure I would get through armageddon, I believed it with all my heart, but didnt think I was good enough. So I couldnt in all concience have more kids
This is something I will always regret. The fear also spoilt part of the joy I should of had with my children, in the back of my mind I thought the children and I would die. it really affected my relationship with them, this is something I have thought more of lately and its made me really sad.
I wish I could turn the clockback, knowing then what I know now.
I had my first child before I came back in the truth, and got pregnant with my second when I was in the first flush of excitment that I was in the truth again
Regrets, Im finding this particularly hard to deal with at the moment