Xander can't be more right.
Being young (I'd like to think I am, I'm the same age as Xander) and having been brought up in the "truth" I know what you feel.
The best advice I can give you is: READ
Stay on this site, read the posts, read some other articles like on
- http://www.watchthetower.com
- http://watchtower.observer.org
- etc, etc, etc....
Then you'll be able to figure out on your own if you want to stay there or not. If the decision doesn't come from you then it's not worth jack!