The TRUTH has to hit you hard in the face to shake you out of the old ideology that you are baptized into the society and not to God. Christ died for YOU, the world and not oranized religion. Its all personal, you are the high prist of your religion and no one stands betwwen you and God, except Christ.
Your situation with your family, can not and should not be interfered with by the borg as long as you do not express your opinions about religion. I am sorry that it becomes a personal decission on the part of your family, as to whether or not maitain a family relationship with you. As you are thier care provider, it would not be exercising a sound mind to throw you over because you DA yourself, their love should move them to try and recover you as a lost sheep instead of punishing you. If they deny you the opportunity to render Christian love and service to them, then they violate Gods law on love, the one true identifing mark of a Christian.
Love yourself, because that is where the true God lays with in you. When you begin to find that strength then this pain will only be tempary.
You are not along, this site is family to those leaving behind the witness life style, and like all families its got some cooks.