I'm glad I have been out long enough I don't fret about this time of year. It's not like I had to worry about an invite- Jw's hardly ever come to my door and I have not received one invite to the memorial . I think when I left it was clear I was done. Still every memorial I felt like I should be there, but that passed after a few years. There is always the option of having your own memorial at home- you know if it really bothers you. I have only set foot in the KH for funerals etc and not many of them
It will get easier.