bluecanary
Well, at least today, I can look back at some stuff and laugh. Like the different times I tried one on one meetups with some girls from some of my university classes. Oh gawd were those pathetically sad! I'll admit its still hard even just hanging out with workmates.
But on the bright side, I've met alot of accepting "worldly" people. The dubs are only superficially accepting so long as I keep up the facade of agreeing with them.
freedomisntfree
To really get to the root of our own "deficiencies" (applying that more to me than to anyone else), its important to be objective and not just easily blame the big bad evil org. My parents shouldn't have gotten married, much less stay together even after me and my sib grew up (we're both in our early mid 30s). But as weird testament to the members of a dysfunctional family not really helping themselves to change: I still want to keep in close contact, so I'm just fading and trying not to get DFed. So I'm sort of making it harder for me to just let it all go. I accept my own part in it all, along with my own natural tendencies of being shy/a loner. Its just that i'm pretty sure that without the dub factor my issues would have been less blown up.