Good evening gently feral.
Your alias is an oxymoron isn't it? Cool idea.
Don't punish yourself. I was extremely shy in school, but then I loosened up and got into some trouble - fortunately not too serious. LOL My son is extremely outgoing and very smart. Has an excellent paying job and position for Kraft Foods. BUT he procrastinates and weighs everything out to an extreme that it paralyzes him from making a lot of decisions. He's forfeited a lot of opportunities because of it. So.......just cause you're shy doesn't mean anything...... you just have to bite the bullet and try harder. It's hard, but it really pays off and you feel so good about yourself. I know you have a lot of untapped abilities. I found that out about myself.
Knowing Spanish is a HUGE advantage in today's workforce. I wish I would've chosen that over French as I've never used it really and you forget things when you don't practice it.
I wish you the best and thanks for posting.
Juni