Posts by redskymedic

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Depressed and about to lose it

by AloneinOh in

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once i left i became about as "worldly" as a person could get.

world that once i left i went totally out of control.

when i left, .

redskymedic

I can totally relate to everything you just wrote. I have been away from 'The Truth' for 8 years or so now, the whole time thinking it was ME that had the problem, that I was just weak. I have been walking around with guilt on my shoulders for as long as I can remember. It is only within the last couple of months that I have come to the full realization that they are all wrong. It is devastating to realize that you have been deceived. It does get better, but I don't know that I will every truly 'forgive and forget'. Hang in there and know that you are not alone!

Red

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Reverse Shunning

by redskymedic in

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i'm thinking of telling my mother i can't talk to her anymore sine i don't agree with how she is conducting her life.

occasionally, i'll meet up with her and my jw aunt (they work together) with both kids in the car.

my aunt will come over to check out my baby but completely pretend that i'm not even there.

redskymedic

I'm thinking of telling my mother I can't talk to her anymore sine I don't agree with how she is conducting her life. Not that it would phase her in the least, but I am downright tired of her condescending attitude. She sees my 12-yr old son a few weekends a month and seems to make a point to have me go out of my way for the exchange. I also have a 6 month old daughter that she likes to visit . . . hmm, maybe I should call her a bad influence and tell her to stay away unless she comes to her senses.

Occasionally, I'll meet up with her and my JW aunt (they work together) with both kids in the car. My aunt will come over to check out my baby but completely pretend that I'm not even there. Next time I'm going to flat out tell her that we no longer 'associate' with JW's and she's not allowed to even so much as peek at my daughter. These people make me nuts. Oh, to keep my sanity around the insane.

Red

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The JW's came to the door today and asked my son to go to meetings

by redhotchilipepper in

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my son answered the door this morning.

the couple that my mr.horton and i had been studying with when we were considering going back to the truth finally got ahold of him.

the did the usual routine.

redskymedic

I feel for you, I still have issues on occasion with my mother and my 12-yr old son. My son does a pretty good job of ignoring it all or just appeasing her when he's alone with her. It does get under my skin, though. You'd like to tell them to give up already and move on with their life.

Red

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Not in the truth, but haunted by it...

by confuzzed in

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i am having trouble dealing with this little voice in the back of my head telling me that if i don't go back to meetings i won't go to the new system and everything i am doing is wrong blah blah blah.

although i have agreed to a study i believe it is more to shut up this little voice rather than because i want to be a witness again.

but if i don't go back i have to deal with this horrible feeling all the time.

redskymedic

I dealt with the same feelings for years. I was raised as a JW, left for good when I was 21. I am 30 now and up until I started 'investigating' their doctrines I had the same nagging voice in the back of my head. I have just come to the realization that I've pretty much been duped all these years and have been beating myself up for nothing. My suggestion to you, would be to look into the basis of their doctrines and check for yourself as to whether or not they seem backed up by the bible. We were always told that looking for answers elsewhere pretty much amounted to apostasy. Now I realize that they didn't want us discovering that many teachings don't hold up to even common reasoning. Good luck to you and I hope that you can find the peace you are looking for.

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What? He's not in the truth???!!!!

by gerbils in

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2 1/2 years ago i met my non-jw boyfriend, and i received a shepherding call from two lovely elders who told me that i was mixing good with evil, and didn't i know the man i loved was going to die at armaggedon?

they left me in tears...not as though i left my boyfriend of course.

i've made sure that things like that don't get to me anymore.

redskymedic

Oh yes, been there on more than one occasion. That's why I'm DF-d now, to be honest. Obviously, the threats didn't stop me and I couldn't be happier with my non-JW husband.

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Encouraged NOT to have kids

by JustTickledPink in

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i was just thinking about the publisher stats and the birth rate, that was mentioned.. do you all remember in the 80's at the assemblies everyone was encouraged not to have children, to spend their time pioneering, because at armeggedon and in the time of the "tribulation" that it would be difficult with small kids.... to wait until the new system.. i remember a couple that pioneered and she really wanted kids, so her husband made her a deal that they had to pioneer for 5 more years and if the "end" hadn't come yet, they could have kids.

i think they were reaching 30. i do remember 5 years went by and they had a son, that was probably 15 years ago.

can you imagine the people that followed the advice and now are too old to have kids, but spent plenty of time pioneering?.

redskymedic

Now that you mention it, I do recall that. I was only a teen at the time, but I remember thinking how terrible to tell people that.

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Missed oppourtunities as a JW kid?

by kwintestal in

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jw kids are repressed in every aspect of their lives, creatively, intellectually, atheletically...the list goes on.. what did you love to do as a kid, yet weren't permitted to do?.

i personally loved football as a kid.

other jw kids and i would play every weekend until the subject was brought up at an assembly as being competitive.

redskymedic

I wanted to be a nurse . . . that was strongly discouraged since I may one day be forced to administer blood products to a patient. Well, I am now a flight paramedic and guiltlessly give my patients blood with a smirk on my face.

I hated not being able to participate in any after-school activities. I think that bothered me more than not celebrating birthdays.

Red

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Go Figure

by redskymedic in

so, after browsing through this website and then taking the search for the real 'truth' about the wts into my own hands, i decided to confront my jw mother.

i stuck with the date-changing (1914, 1975, 2000) and asked what the explanation was since i have been gone for over 10 years now.

she was quiet for a minute, then told me there was an explanation but she would have to look it up.

redskymedic

So, after browsing through this website and then taking the search for the real 'Truth' about the WTS into my own hands, I decided to confront my JW mother. I stuck with the date-changing (1914, 1975, 2000) and asked what the explanation was since I have been gone for over 10 years now. She was quiet for a minute, then told me there was an explanation but she would have to look it up. Hmm. Ok. This is someone that in my head has always 'known' the bible inside and out. I asked her if the switching of dates and the generation that was not to have passed away now having died, didn't strike her as odd or make her have doubts. Her answer to me was this, "If 99% of what they tell me is true, then I am not going to worry about the other 1%". I almost asked her for the definition of TRUTH, but it was obviosly a fruitless discussion and I let it drop. She flat out admitted that they were wrong but wasn't phased in the least. Amazing what mind-control can make you overlook.

Just thought I'd share . . .wasn't sure if I should find it funny or just downright pitiful.

Red

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Playing Dumb

by redskymedic in

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i had this bizarre urge the other day to walk into a kh (i am df-d by the way) and play dumb .

not tell anyone that i ever had any affiliation with the witnesses and lead them all on.

oh, to see the looks on the faces of some when they came to find out they were associating with a df-ed person (gasp).

redskymedic

I had this bizarre urge the other day to walk into a KH (I am DF-d by the way) and play dumb . . . not tell anyone that I ever had any affiliation with the witnesses and lead them all on. Oh, to see the looks on the faces of some when they came to find out they were associating with a DF-ed person (GASP). Thankfully, the urge left and I came back to my senses.

Red

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Hi I'm new here

by embeth2525 in

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i am so glad that i found this site.

i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.

my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.

redskymedic

I think you will find this board to be very helpful in 'recovering'. For some reason I thought I was the only one out there who felt like they were still not right after being raised with such guilt about everything. It does get easier!

Red