Posts by Sparkplug

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My Son Made me Laugh~

by Sparkplug in

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_ydd0kjvyj0.

as he said, keep watching, it warms up!

lol.

Sparkplug

With this~

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_YdD0kJvYj0

As he said, keep watching, it warms up! lol

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Elder asks me why we quit... (Long)

by Odrade in

in this thread i mentioned having a long chat with an elder last summer.

i didn't realize i had never posted the story, so here it is.. last summer (when i went to buy my new camera lens) i ran into one of my favorite jws at the photography shop.

he was buying a camera bag for his new dslr, and i saw him, went up and greeted him, hugged him.

Most assuredly worth the read. I loved it. Truly I did. The read was really good. I liked your answers and questions to him and how well you told us of the happening. Thank you. It gives me help in what to say should I ever decide to cross the subject with my brother again.

Decki

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by FlyingHighNow in

hit this link and type in your time and place of birth.

you will get a chart done within seconds.

i'm interested to see how yours fits your personality.

Sparkplug

Ok, This was a good one. Normally I would give it all out but today...Nope, you get to make up Sh*t. lol

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The Gift of Speaking in Tongues?

by Maddie in

jw
friends

with the increase in evangelical churches there seems to be a lot more emphasis on the practise of "speaking in tongues".

i quite like the way these churches conduct services, with live music and great singing.

it is so different to the kh meetings and like fresh air.

Sparkplug

I went to a church that practiced it and I've done it.
Consider it like stream-of-consciousness babble, coming from our inexpressible parts of our mind. The heart is engaged, it is meaningful for the speaker, but perhaps it is not meant to be interpreted by anybody. You know, like grief, sometimes too deep to be expressed fully in words. The same with love, joy, and spiritual estacy. It can get like that when you consider the breadth of the universe and listen to the chords of life. Like Northern Lights dancing across the sky of your awareness.
How our church got around those scriptures is if someone broke out in tongues outside the order of the service, an interpretation was required. If the whole church however, broke out in tongues, it was more like a "joyful noise" and no interpretation was required.
I think if someone "spoke in tongues" as I've described above, it's not an ego thing.

Thank you for that. I have always wondered what it was like for someone who did it. very interesting.

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Givers and Takers

by wanderlustguy in

jw
friends

i had a teacher in jr. high in my advanced education class talk about givers and takers as a subject.

looking back, perhaps she was going through a rough patchmakes me wonder.. this morning i had one of those moments of realization, basically from reviewing recent events, and even more so because i was mentally rehashing some conversations with someone who means a lot to me.

it dawned on me the role she has come to play in one of the major events of her life, as well as who she became because of it.

Sparkplug

Maybe we just don’t fit the mold, and have to accept that ourselves before we can expect anyone else to.

I think that is the key to a lot of things in life. Great insight and writing WLG.

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Killeen, TX

by witnesscorn-wife in

my husband, children and i attended the killeen congregation for a couple of years.

any ex dubbs here from that area?

Sparkplug

Had a friend down there. She and her husband built a chouse and I helped a friend marble/paint her bathroom. Can't give you a loast name. Only remember her first.

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??? for single moms

by frozen one in

when you were dating a new guy, how did you introduce your kids to the guy?

in your experience what worked really well?

what didn't work out?.

Sparkplug

Thanks Avi! Needed that.

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WHAT ARE YOU DOING FOR NEW YEARS EVE?

by Mary in

jw
friends

are you doing anything special tomorrow night???

i think i'm going over to some ex-dubs' house to celebrate this horrible, pagan festival that will no doubt earn me a one-way ticket to the firey gehenna.

anyone else got sum plan??!!

Sparkplug

Well i was supposed to be spending the evening with family, letting off fireworks etc......but i've got the flu so im desperately trying to get better so i can still go and celebrate.

Ditto...but it is a child sick, and well be it a day early to predict, I am thinking I am probably going to be here. I feel pretty creepy just leaving my other kids here on New years while I go whoop it up. I had this vision of making them all go have fun with me. LOL (you know?) This is going to be fun or else. Well now it is more like I don't want to do that, and I don't want to have them sit here and watch their sister puke. I don't even seem to be into it now. Probably just tired now. We will see.

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??? for single moms

by frozen one in

when you were dating a new guy, how did you introduce your kids to the guy?

in your experience what worked really well?

what didn't work out?.

Sparkplug

As a mom who has been single for a long time as sweetstuff has I agree...but with a twist. I also have been in long relationships. Years in fact. And they can still just walk. I have been married for years and they still just walk. I have been the numskull that dated and brought them around the kids too soon and that was stupid...and you know what...anyone is free to walk at anytime.

The fact is kids are hurt no matter what way you go.

You teach your kids the best way you can.

They are hurt by the absence of a parental figure. Don't try to fool yourself and say they are not. You just do the best you can with what you have not.

And they are hurt by people coming and going out of theirr lives. They really are.

They are hurt by natural parents leaving.

They are hurt by natural parents staying far too long if it is an arrangment that is detremental to their well being emotionally or physically.

They are hurt by both parents being there if they really don't get to know their child.

They are hurt if you get to know someone and take the appropriate time to bring them into your life and do all the correct steps...and still they leave.

They are hurt if you try again...and they are hurt if you don't.

Everything you do will change and have a change in your child...The absolute best thing you can do is be there as a constant for your child. Know your child and do the best you can to keep your relationship constant with your child stable. If you think that what you do after hours when they are asleep they don't know...you are sadly mistaken. Kids know. They are smart and it all catches up with you. So don't be afraid to live. Forgive yourself for your mistakes and keep trying with your kids. Keep moving forward Judge not harshly for you never know what you have missed in your own childs life that you don't know yet. Some kids don't nor won't tell their parents what is really inside that picture perfect painting they show you. I am learning that by some kids I am talking with recently. It is heartbreaking.

I often feel so bad because all of my sins are there for the world to see. I never hide stuff. I am a big one on saying this is it. This is who I am and this is what I have done. Wrong and right..and now. Lets either prevent it from getting worse...or happening at all. or fix it. Whatever the case is. But I am seeing these people who have these picture perfect lives and it is so sad because the kids are telling me this different story. They are the same and ten(no 100 times worse) because nobody would talk about it (the problems) or even acknowledge them. Like it would be a reflection upon them if they saw there was a problem in the first place.

Anyhow. With this rant. I say, be careful. Don't throw caution to the wind. do all you can in your power to be careful and to feel things out and protect your children in dating situations. But as with anything. You can never control or really know the other person. And like it or not as much as you want...thing happen and "best laid plans have a way of falling down midflight."

There. Ten cents worth instead of two.

Sparky (Painfullly aware of her transgressions)

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I am having a bad day

by Vivamus in

it is wearing me down.. my constant companion in life, my skull-breaking- mind-blowing- daily migraines finally got the better off me six months ago.

i broke down, i cried and cried and cried.

not only cuz of the pain, but more for the fact that painkillers were not helping me anymore.

Sparkplug

Well finally after all day I can tell Odrade that it is no big deal! If there were one reason for any problem...then there would be a cure for a lot of things by now. Truly, it is all intertwined no matter how we get them (migraines). Once you have them anything sets then off.

The only reason I belched out my problem was it seems she had a breakdown. That is pretty hard to say.

To get mine under control..it is a lot of a 40 /60 mix I have been told. Right now 40 medication and 60 is working through it myself. But it will take a complete change in what I do as far as myself and for myself. Lifestyle and eating correct a lot. My therapist has done accupuncture and herbs and vitamins and is all about relaxation and meditation. De~stressing yourself.

BUT...for the short term and until I get to where I can control it...hell yeah she gave me meds and I will take them. It is not for forever...or maybe some are. But it is more like monitoring it and finding out what works for you and when it works for you. I really can't stand it when someone says, "Oh, you just had a nervous breakdown? Here take some vitamin C..." (Just kidding you all. thats an exaggeration) Basically, I am filling up my toolbox with better ways to handle things and in the meantime, giving my physical brain a rest.

And Viv. I noticed you said that:

but really I cannot break down in front of them and they really cannot understand how it hurts.

Tis true. People don't understand. I did not understood till I experienced this last year in life. I was quite the harsh one on people that were constantly in my mind critical of people that were off of work for migraines and things like that. I thought it was just free days off. Now, I have a lesson learned and a much needed one at that. I will be a much more understanding person after this last year. I am sure after this year and some that is coming even more so. WTH do I have to say to anyone?

People get uncomfortable around crazy. That is what I call it. They are afraid, maybe of loss or rejection. They are afraid they will become like the one hurting. It is depressing to be around. They are afraid they will be labeled by being around someone in this situation sometimes if in a work sitation. They are afraid they will not know how to help, or that they actually will have to help. Maybe they are a selfish person and they may have to face that if you break down in front of them. (anyhow) all anger comes from fear. It makes it uncomfortable. People are afraid of what they don't understand. They may have been part of what caused the stress that overtaxed the person in the first place. It is all fear.

It turns to anger. anger. Which in some people they throw it out as blame onto other people for the problem. And then yet others internalize it. (take all the blame) Either way...

The blame starts. Blaming yourself or others. Or they blame themself or you.. See?

If you blame yourself it turns to guilt and this comes across as looking like you don't care about yourself or have low self esteem...(so one tries to hide it.) Or I could see if they blame themself they would start to avoid a person such as me. ... perhaps out of guilt. And if you or they whoever is on whatever side of the situation is one that blames others blame others it all just jumps to hate.

Both the internalizer and the external blame person turn to hate. Either you are hating...because you have held it in for so long. Hating yourself...thinking you caused it, or hating on others because you think they caused it. (This really can apply to a lot of us and the WTBT society)

And the last step to this madness is GET EVEN.

So I guess I rambled...But That is where the stress and anxiety and headaches eat us up. If we never stop the cycle anywhere in this madness, we are going to make ourselves sick.

The only way out of all of it is Forgiveness.

So that is one of the first things I was given to wrap my mind around. Sometimes it is hard to do, but so far in any situation I can think of. It has fit. If I think really hard. It fits. If I am angry. It is out of fear. And so do all the steps that follow. And if I stopped it...It was because I forgave and let it truly go. Either forgave myself or others. So now, I am learning a lot of tools I need starting with this one. in order to let stress go. How to forgive people I thought should have been there for me more. How to forgive myself for not getting help sooner and getting a look into my personality and seeing that WOW it is completely written in books that a person like me would naturally NOT go get help until they had migraines and hair started falling out and lives were messed up and at wits end. LOL Go figure..

I don't know it all.

And probably if you lasted to this point...you have one of the tougher minds. I would dare to say you are probably an overachiever, perfectionist, like your independence, successful and usually have it all together. And push yourself pretty hard and cannot believe you are in this mess....

Its OK hon.. Its ok. You are going to be just fine.

And I am going to be just fine. I keep telling myself that. And you keep telling yourself that.

It is all good.

Breath in, Breath out and peace be upon you!

And as a disclaimer (of course) ...If I am way off. Forget I said anything...