Posts by Cordelia

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guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

Ross i will try anything and its funny i saw sirona tonight and you have said what she did that he is just too immature, maybe if he was older it would be ok, (great minds think alike!!)

dimond blue, u are exactly right that is how i feel surely if he loved me enough he would at least try and be there but it is all about him, i have spent an afternoon with my mum who is ill and feels its a way we can talk if shes ill!!! but my bf when i rang him was just concerned that i hadnt text him all afternoon, i have had enough and we are finished now he is too childish to deal with what i need, i know that may sound selfish i dont mean it like that but i at least want abit of support, sirona said something to me why dont i try it alone, and i realised i have never been alone but im scared to be tho maybe i should give it a go

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My neck my back........

by lola28 in

jw
friends

they hurt so much any one what will make it feel better?

i took some asprin but that did not help.

any suggestions would be welcomed..

Cordelia

deep heats great,

ps. thought you were gonna start singing!!

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guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

thanks everyone,

god ross a counsellor what would the jws say??

ignat that parable was brilliant!

Ballistic thanks for what you said i really appreciate it, im sure it isnt the truth but coz my dad etc is so convinced and it was my life for 29 years i find it hard to let it go completely coz i was the happy pioneer etc and sometimes i wish i hadnt found out anything about it, coz it would hurt my family so much for me to stop entirely now, which is what i have done im just wondering whether it was the right decision, but as someone said i think it was ross, its ok to look back fondly on your previous life but a different thing to recreate it, (see i do actually pay attention!)

and realisticly things would be alot harder now if i went back to EVERYTHING i had before wouldnt they?

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Can anyone tell me about the UN

by PoppyR in

i'm so sorry that i'm sure everytime somone new joins you're going over the same thing again, but all this is very new to me, in fact i've done very little this past week except read articles and cross reference the wt cd rom..lol, everyone thinks i'm getting spiritual again, anyway!

i have read several references to the jws and the un.. can anyone shed some light on the matter, ie point me in the direction of good posts or articles about it, as i'm still unclear what has been going on.

i'm most interested in the facts of the case which is what i think this board is best at!.

Cordelia

when i heard about it i wanted to actually see it on the un site and someone told me to do this:

go on the un site

click on welcome

click on about the united nations

click on NGO section

click on NGO related documents

click on other documents

and there they are!

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guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

i went to doctors he put me on antidepressents for a month but only 10 mg, i feel like a crack pot!

there not working yet!!!

i will tell him about the list i havent a printer, but sirona if youre reading this will you print it for me?

tho he wouldnt like the option of going back with my hubby he is pretty jealous and unreasonable sometimes!

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I gave the PO a letter tonight

by fullofdoubtnow in

jw
friends

tonight was the school/service meeting at the kh, and myself and dedpoet drove there at the end of the meeting to see the po.

we didn't go in the hall, we just waited outside the gates for the po to come out, then i handed him my letter, saying it was to get things over with and save the necessity of a jc.

he didn't ask what it was, i think he knew, especially when he saw dp give me the thumbs up sign, but asked me to reconsider, but i said my mind is made up, i am leaving, and i want it out in the open as soon as possible.

Cordelia

CONGRATULATIONS

why dont you write a few letters to people in the hall before your annoucement telling them the things youve learned maybe get them to think about questioning the 'truth' themselves! also it may help you to say 'bye' to any you were close with (thats something i wish i'd done!)

Do you have any family in the 'truth?'

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guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

wow ignat thats great!

i had decided on number 4 then my bf started being a pain (tho he says its just coz ive never put him first) and ex hubby started being nice! (tho i think too much will have gone on for us to be ever truely ok)

i still like no 4 its just actually hurting my family thats hard!

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guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

Ross those poem were brilliant have you wrote any more since?

you are right my mum is a good sign but would she still do it if she thought i was living in sin!

i dont understand why im so mixed up, how can i swing from loving my bf and be willing to give up everything, then being strong enough to tell my dad i dont want the truth even tho im not reinstated, to feeling like i should just go back to my old life for my daughter even if it means being back in the truth! i find myself thinking things like we would move halls that would be ok and maybe it is the truth??

how can i be swinging so much and should i lose my family if im not sure altho if i dont i will find myself back in the truth and have lost my bf!!

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guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

you are right, sometimes i wonder why i left in the first place now my ex is trying to be nice and keeps saying we shouldnt be sharing our little girl but he would only have me back if i was in the truth again! and obviously there was areason i left in the first place! i just gave up so much we had a lovely house,

im just so mixed up and now my mum has broke her arm and actually invited me round tomorrow as she says it is difficult family circumstances so she can see me! i know it will just be an opputunity for her to tell me to get reinstated and back with my ex,

i just dont know what to do the bf says he will get back with me but only if i tell everyone we are moving in together and give it a proper go! but then i hurt everyone even more (coz id be living in sin!) and then i feel mad at him giving me that ultermatim when he has treated me so bad, but then he does prob deserve it,

see i feel that if he had been supportive and nice i could of done anything! but maybe i wouldnt be happy without my family! im so mixed up (and going on too much!)

99

guys i really need your help

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

todaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.

basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.

but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .

Cordelia

thanks again

daystar thats what i was wondering if the bf has been so unsupportive now ( and actually cruel at times) then i dont need him, i was scared that i was being unreasonable and expecting too much but i think i deserve a little understanding not an unreasonable request to do everything at once! (i think)

little toe i know i have made things harder esp as i have started working on a tuesday over the group time, and i dont want to go thru all the hard times again, my ex husband would prob support me if i showed i was doing it properly (he still wants us to get back for our little girl!) i am just so confused i have just been focusing on the bf entirely but its ended up with me getting hurt,

i just have to think whats best for me and my daughter (tho what that is i dont know!)