From a never a jw point of view- I can't imagine having to keep both worlds straight all the time. If you have non jw friends and can be completely honest with them but then have all the jw family/friends and making sure you don't slip up would be a difficult life.
Aside from the personal mental issues it would inflict upon you, how do you knowingly go to strangers and those you claim to love and tell them they must live the jw life? that their very life (soul if jw's believed in one the way non jw's do) depends upon getting on the ark of the jw's? how do you live with yourself? how do you look at yourself in the mirror everyday? Not trying to judge you, I really want to know how one would be able to do it?
I suppose people who cheat on their spouse, commit crimes, politicians, etc... do it everyday so I shouldn't find it so disturbing.
I guess you get what you want out of it so it makes it ok?
You are an elder? you have power over true believers who may go to you for help? will you help them get out? Will you turn in known pedophiles to the authorities? or will that put a damper on your bbq invites?
The more I think about your post you sound like a selfish sob. In most churches what you are doing would be considered sinful and hypocritical.