the past several nights i have had very disturbing dreams that, while not the nightmares i used to have, still leave me feeling powerless and vulnerable.
i feel like the other shoe will drop soon and i feel totally unprepared while just waiting for it to happen.. in one dream i witness my niece as a little girl back when she was first starting grade school.
since i have never known my nieces and nephews as teenagers, i tend to dream of them as they were when they were children.
Tammy,
Write down your dreams. It is a good way to expell them from your waking life. Write things that bother you.
It seems like in each dream you are trying to save others. Maybe it is time to save yourself. Take time out for yourself. Realize you can't save the world but how you view it.
Just some thoughts.
Cathy
when i left the organization this question was asked by some jws.
it was undoubtedly asked with the thought in mind that we weren't fulfilling our dedication to jehovah?
i know what my answer was to this.
I send my little Pomeranian over there with the magazines.
Then the neighbor takes the magazines and uses them to beat my dog out of their yard.
I don't do anything. They keep to themselves and I keep to myself.
Cathy
i don't know why i woke up this morning with this question on my mind.
why would god make the angels first, which are superior to humans, then go and make something inferior, like humans second.
i would figure that the angels would be like 1.0 then the humans would be revision 2.0 or something like that.
Not sure if I have taken the high road as I left everything and everyone behind.
My life has been pure hell. I just chose to become a workaholic.
Maybe next time I won't have to come back. Maybe I will get Angel status.
Thanks Ravyn
Cathy
as i was growing up in the troof.
there were sayings used over and over again to control my behaviour.
the biblical on bad associations spoil useful habits and another on just because everyone else does it doesnt mean you have to do it to, would you jump off a cliff just because other people do what were the sayings that bugged you?
Oh my god I almost forgot the best one of all time.
Only the faithful get tested because Satan is working so hard to decieve and coerce them. So sister you show such faithfulness as the harships are great.
Ok well anyway brother how will i feed my kids if I go on welfare? Jehovah will provide if you put him first. Can you actually believe that they request I go on welfare so I could go to the meetings and out in service.
If i remember correctly in the bible it states the head of the house was to provide. Well after the divorce I was the head of this house, I had a responsibilty to provide and provide I did.
Cathy
as i was growing up in the troof.
there were sayings used over and over again to control my behaviour.
the biblical on bad associations spoil useful habits and another on just because everyone else does it doesnt mean you have to do it to, would you jump off a cliff just because other people do what were the sayings that bugged you?
So many memories, so little time.
Thank you all for the great memories.
Wait of Jehovah
If Jehovah is willing you will get what you need, not what you want.
Only the righteous will survive, you don't want to be found erring in these critical times, so near the end, do you?
For righteousness to prevail you have to give in and do what you are told. You need to enhance the sheeplike attitude sister blacksheep.
In gods loving arrangement you need to reconsider taking your abusive husband back. You know what Jehovah wants. You also know that Jehovah hates a divorcing. So please show your integrity and love, do the loving thing, forgive.
And of course all the usual everyone has stated.
Persecution comes in many forms and we just have to endure to the end. We have to stay loyal and forgive for the New System is close at hand.
Cathy
i've come to that conclusion.
some would rather not have to think about a position, a prophecy, a requirement or a belief.
they really would rather follow the dictates of leaders of an organization.
Just a thought on this.
When do they actually have time to think for themselves between 5meetings a week and service?
When you are in it is much easier to study what is presented and well if you do have questions
"Wait on Jehovah" he will take care of the situation in his time.
Well his day is a thousand years, my life is less than a hundred if i am oh so lucky.
Cathy
is it possible that the wts comes out with 'new light' in order to hide a secret truth within the higher ranks of its organization?
Ok, would like the information as I would like to see it in black and white to confirm or disprove this theory.
Should I call the graveyard and ask if i can get a plot in this site to see if it will let me be buried there.
Hey good enough for Russel good enough for me.
It is interesting that the symbol was used in the printing.
Websites only offer so much.
Cathy
i don't know why i woke up this morning with this question on my mind.
why would god make the angels first, which are superior to humans, then go and make something inferior, like humans second.
i would figure that the angels would be like 1.0 then the humans would be revision 2.0 or something like that.
Amazing points to ponder.
Will write these down for those rainy days i have nothing left to do except ponder.
Thank you
Cathy
i just had a jw come to my door and i had to threaten her to get her to leave!
i told the woman right off i was 'apostate' and had no intention of changing it.
she kept asking me personal questions which i told her were none of her business and she said she would have the elders come by and i told her that if they came by the better be wearing bullet proof vests!
My gosh next time go to the door with the mace and spray it!
Put up signs for no trespassing. No soliciting of any kind, and above all no jehovahs witnesses.
Property protected by smith and Wesson, all those trespassing will be shot on site.
Then get a huge, mean dog...let it loose.
NO GUNS!
They are not worth the effort of owning a gun.
Above all take a warm bubble bath with some lit candles and pick up your favorite book.
Enjoy that you are not out knocking on doors.
Cathy
a judge awarded vicki boer $5,000 in june.
she claimed in a civil suit that elders told her not to seek outside help or report the alleged abuse.
no no criminal charges were laid in the assault allegations.
This is horrendous!
This is outrageous!
This is a group of loving brothers. Oh yeah!
Women are the last on the totem pole again and again.
Thank you for the link.
Cathy
