Growing up JW (when we were about 5 to 10 yrs old) my bro had a friend who always wanted to be with us, the girls, cooking, sewing, everything girl. I didn't understand it then, but I do now. It makes perfect sense. He's gay. Never a choice he made. He never got baptized, left the jws and lives an openly gay lifestyle. I still love him and his partner is great.
You are who you are. Embrace it. Do not let some man-made religion influence you. Be who you are!