When I was df'd- I was given a choice- say I won't do it again, which I could have said, but along with that they wanted me to dump my non-jw boyfriend, which I wasn't willing to do. So I guess I took door #2- the df'ing.
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Truth is, I am just sick of being a witness.
by joelbear inwhy do people get disfellowshipped.
i mean, when i met with the elders and told them i had gone to key west and done the homo thing, they said, well if you don't do it again we won't df you.
well the truth was, i just didn't want to be a jehovah's witness any more, so i said, well i'll be doing it again i reckon.. isn't this true of most people who get df'ed.
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Fun with Shunners ;)
by damselfly ini used to try and avoid running into jw's after i was first d/f, but the past few years i have taken a different spin on it.
at my old job as a cashier if i was the only cash open then they had no choice but to have me wait on them.
the apprehension on their faces as they approaached was hysterical.
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feelinglost
This gives me a whole new perspective the next time I run into a jw. The last one I saw was the one my mother was so nice to send to my new house (where I thought I would never be found)- my mom got a piece of my mind for that one. But I couldn't be mean to the one who she sent, b/c he had always been nice to me, and was gone from our cong before i was df'd.
If I had a partner in crime, it would be fun to go to a DC during lunch, and put some of your suggestions to use.
Damselfly- I think we could have a whole lot of fun together.
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What do you miss most about being in the truth ?
by prophecor inevery once in a while, i'll drive thru the blocks of our old territory, remebering the friends, how we would share time in the ministry.
reminiscing about those i left.
every so often, i'll pull out the old photographs.
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feelinglost
I too miss the witness weddings- they definitely knew how to have fun- dancing till 1 in the morning!
I miss having a relationship with my mom- and having to help her at assemblies and conventions (of course at the time i didn't enjoy it).
The only 3 real friends I ever had- who were pretty much worldly anyways- the one introduced me to my first night club experience and we picked up a guy at a billiards club, one told me all about her sex life (at 14), and the other joined me in dating worldly guys.
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I'm going to JW Hell, I'm going to die.....
by riotgirlpeeps ini thought this would be kind of fun to do is list some of the offenses that i have committed according to witness beliefs.
i thought it might be mildly amusing considering the lack of emphasis that any of these things are wrong according to the majority of the population.
i'll limit myself to ten.
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feelinglost
1) Premarital sex, and lots and it is always sooooo good. I wasn't all bad, slept with about 8 sisters but was with more non JWs.
That's just too good.Never realized till someone asked how many things I have done:
1) Of course sh***y language comes out of my mouth every once in while.
2) Had lots of worldly boyfriends (actually, that was before I was df'd).
3) Had premarital sex with my now husband.
4) Lived with my boyfriend (now husband).
5) Celebrate holidays- every one that I get a chance to (hey, I missed them for 15 years, time to catch up).
6) Have gone to a couple of church masses.
7) Gambled and had lots of fun doing it.
8) I have grown obsessed with Buffy the Vampire Slayer (laugh if you must- I blame it on my father).
9) Slept in a house with lots of unmarried males and females.
10) Got completely drunk on New Year's Eve in NYC and was completely loud and belligerent (although the cops seemed to like me when I said hi).
And I won't mention the occasional porn me and hubby make fun of or the things we do in the bedroom. - He's my husband- we should be able to do whatever we want!
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Does anyone else flip off the Kingdom Hall when they drive by?
by Dustin inso it has become habit for me to go out of my way when driving to make sure i can give it the finger as i drive by.
i especially like to do this on the way to one of my favorite bars, especially on meeting nights just so people who knew me can see me do it.
i don't know why, but this has become a tradition of sorts.
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feelinglost
What I really wish is that I could projectile vomit at will ala the Exorcist, I'd just crank the window down and bazooka the place as I passed screaming in that great demon voice from the Exorcist the GB sucks caulk in hell.
I am sitting here LMAO at work. That's the best- I should try that sometime.
I still get a queasy feeling when I drive by a KH, but the other day, I dropped the husband off to work and had already forgotten he had told me there was a convention that weekend. So I am sitting at a red light right by our Arena that they have it in, playing, no blasting really, "Let the bodies hit the floor" by Drowning Pool (which is more husband's kind of music) with my windows open. Nothing personal against any of the people, just wanted to see if anyone would squirm. It felt kind of good.
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Reason for getting disfellowshipped.
by greendawn inwhat were you all disfellowshipped for?
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perhaps a frequent topic overall but i never happened to notice it.
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feelinglost
I started dating a non-jw in May. I stopped going to meetings in September. I moved in with my then JW friend (who was also dating and had just gotten engaged to a non-JW). I was going to fade, b/c I knew it wasn't right to keep going and be dating a non-jw. My friend's elders started bothering her (i think mostly b/c unfortunately her mother lived the street behind us). No one had tried to contact me. Until she met with hers, and they asked about me, and big dummy she was said "Yes, her boyfriend spends the night here, but anything else you'll have to talk to her." So then of course mine started bothering me, I ducked them for a few months, finally met with them (cause they didn't want to df me without talking to me), they listened to nothing I said, told me I could avoid the DF'ing if I dumped my boyfriend (so I asked, if he was a witness, would i have to dump him? they said no, b/c there would be less of a chance of something happening again, whereas with a non-believer, there was a greater chance of something happening- I didn't think that was right). One of the elders was actually very rude and belligerent (of course, i had always disliked him), and he made some comment about how one of my old friends who no longer went was "crazy." I told him i didn't think her mother would like his comment. So they DF'ed me for sleeping with my boyfriend. So I actually did deserve it- but I had tried so hard to just slide away, and they just had to chase me around for months- minus my roommate (who was doing the exact same thing!), I had no contact with any witnesses- I just wanted to be left alone. But no.
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So maybe I am occasionally bitter...
by feelinglost inthe first blow came the first christmas after i was disfellowshipped.
my boyfriend was gone with his family, so i had asked my mom if she wanted to spend the day together (like we used to do before i was df'd).
watch a movie, make some food.
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feelinglost
"Did you feel bad saying this? Cause I want to say the same thing to both my parents. I have such a wonderful husband he would support me in helping my parents when they could no longer live on their own. I have been tempted to "threaten" my parents with "what are you going to do when you can no longer care for yourself?", but I feel guilty about that. Don't know. Just wondering. "
Purza- I hate hurting my mom, because I don't feel like any of this is her fault- but I finally got some things off my chest, and it felt good, and she knew I was right that I would be the one taking care of her. I have two half-brothers (we have the same dad), so she would pretty much be entirely my responsibility if something happened to my dad.
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Happiness is...
by jeanniebeanz inhappiness is .
what is happiness to you?
this tormented me as a witness.
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feelinglost
Happiness will be starting my own wonderful family with my wonderful new husband who treats me better than any JW man ever did. And eventually learning to like myself.
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So maybe I am occasionally bitter...
by feelinglost inthe first blow came the first christmas after i was disfellowshipped.
my boyfriend was gone with his family, so i had asked my mom if she wanted to spend the day together (like we used to do before i was df'd).
watch a movie, make some food.
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feelinglost
The first blow came the first Christmas after I was disfellowshipped. My boyfriend was gone with his family, so I had asked my mom if she wanted to spend the day together (like we used to do before I was df'd). watch a movie, make some food. She calls me a day or two before- she can't- the elders or someone had discouraged her from spending a WHOLE day with me. I cried all day on Christmas, and my non-jw aunt had pity on me and told me to stay at her house so i wouldn't be all alone.
And my mom tries to tell me she the made the decision not to come to my wedding all by herself. I doubt that. Very seriously.
But the best thing to me is that- they strongly discourage her from having too much contact with me. My mom is disabled (cerebral palsy). She is still married to my non-jw father. They have never had the best marriage. Sometimes I think dad is there out of obligation. He hates the JW's (he is so excited I am no longer one), especially the one who my mom started studying with. But, as I said to my mom, if something were to happen to my father, my mother would need help. And granted the JW's might give her a ride here or there, bring her a meal once in a while, but they all have their own families and lives- none of them are going to take care of her or move her into their home. So then she will need who? ME. The bad df'd daughter that they have told her to stay away from as much as possible. Oh, good idea- alienate and push away the only person who will actually take care of her if the time ever comes. They are so strict in their df rules (not even eating with such a person, even if their family), that they don't take into account different situations. I want to see how much they encourage her to stay away from me when the time comes that they know she needs me. Then what. I would never take it out on my mother- she has always been the rule abiding little sheep, even to extremes sometimes.
Whew, that felt good to get off my chest.
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First time on here- DF'd almost 3 years ago
by feelinglost ini have toyed around with the idea of finding fellow df'd ones for about a year now.
i recently got married, and of course it has made me look at how it feels like i gave up one life for another.
the only member of my family who is a jw is my mother- and it kills me that we pretty much no longer have a relationship.
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feelinglost
I have toyed around with the idea of finding fellow df'd ones for about a year now. I recently got married, and of course it has made me look at how it feels like i gave up one life for another. The only member of my family who is a JW is my mother- and it kills me that we pretty much no longer have a relationship. If it weren't for her, I don't think being df'd would even bother me. I never really felt too close any witnesses. I love my husband with all my heart, but being a non-jw, sometimes he doesn't understand. So I would really love to have some people to talk to who understand what it's like to no longer be a part of the jw's. I think what finally made me do this was the jw convention i drove past this morning. I'm not angry with them- i still get a little upset that they couldn't just let me fade- they had to follow me around till they df'd me. Maybe the fact that I don't hate them or know how I feel about them won't make me very popular on here. I am just looking for others to talk to, who understand what it's like to lose family, and kind of have to start over again. I hope someone will be willing to talk to me.