Posts by justsomedude

I have a question that not many people would understand. I have faith that despite how crazy it sounds, most on this board will probably know what I am talking about though.

I'm on the path to leaving this cult that has been a part of my life for more than 27 years. At age 30 that means that I have been involved with the jw's for 90% of my life. Considering I have virtually no memories from the other 3 years of my life, it wouldnt be exagerating to say that I have known nothing else. Suffice it to say, there is much that I have missed out on and not done.

While I can sit here and name pages of things that I didnt do that I regret, the biggest thing are the human relationships that I wasnt allowed to have and didnt allow myself to have.

As a kid, I missed out on a lot because of the friends I wasnt allowed to have and the things I wasnt allowed to do.

What I really regret however, were the relationships that I didnt have as an adult. Now that I am finally ready to enter the real world, there is so much that I just dont know how to explain. How can I expect anyone who isnt an ex-jw or an cult exit counsellor to understand how much this goofy religion has affected me.

For example here are a few things that strike me as particularly odd, should I try to explain them to anyone.

I didnt lose my virginity until 23 and have had sex a handfull of times in the last seven years because I was concerned about some invisible old man in the sky who cared where I put my cock.

and another..

I have been on about 6 dates in the last 4 years and have never tried to pursue a relationship in any of that time because my faith in God was wavering and I didnt want to get involved with some poor witness girl under the pretense that I actually believed what was in the bible.... and I could hardly get involved with a "worldly" girl because of the consequenses of that.

and another...

I cant actually tell any of this to anyone I know because I would then be an outcast to everyone that I know or love..

How can I even start to live life in the real world?

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A Demon Haunted World

by wednesday in

someone just recently posted the name of a book, i believe it was called 'a demon haunted world" .

i went to amazon, and the author they have is carl sagon.. is the correct book?

or is there a lesser known writer who wrote another book?

justsomedude

I just finished "Have you seen my mother" and was getting ready to start on this one tomorrow. Glad to hear its a good book.

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I've read some pretty imaginative Fairy Tales but....

by lucifer in

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i must say the bible takes to prize, they are pretty creative, i mean a snake that is a devil talking to a naked woman trying to make her eat fruit, or how about a man who gets his strength through his hair (sampson i think) and an evil woman tricks him and cuts it off, anyone else feel like the bible is a good bedtime story, but now they left the borg find it hard to believe??

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justsomedude

I've read and studied a lot of mythology and now just view the bible as jewish mythology. It's kind of funny though, when it comes down to it, the bible stories are rather boring in comparison. I think thats why the bible has held up though and why people still believe it.

I've had the exact same thought. It retains some credibility just because it isnt as far out there as some mythology.

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I might be retarded

by justsomedude in

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just like the subject says.... .

i'm trying to sneak away quietly from the wtbs so maybe i can keep my family and friends, though i know im only dreaming really.

i gave up acting a few months ago and quit going to the meetings, because i just couldnt sit through anymore.

justsomedude

Bet it felt good tho.

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There are tens of thousands of JWs like you that want to fade away because they realised that this religion is deceiving and exploiting them and that they sell them endless lies instead of the truth.

I spend so much time thinking about this these days. I really wonder how many are dieing to get out and run screaming the other way? Do those that are acting have some fun with it from time to time like I did? I was getting pretty good at making comments that sounded right, but had other meanings if you sat down and thought about them.

To everyone else, thanks for the welcomes, hugs and support. As Im sure is the case with many of you, there is no one that I can talk to about this stuff that wouldnt think Im nuts on the one hand, or take me to the elders on the other. So thanks for the listening ear, cause Im sure Ill have more to say.

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I might be retarded

by justsomedude in

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just like the subject says.... .

i'm trying to sneak away quietly from the wtbs so maybe i can keep my family and friends, though i know im only dreaming really.

i gave up acting a few months ago and quit going to the meetings, because i just couldnt sit through anymore.

justsomedude

I knew I wouldnt be able to keep my mouth shut forever, but I sure was hoping it would be longer than 3 months. Though technically I guess I didnt even make that as I have had a few small outbursts previous to this, but Im sure anyone present would have just chalked it up to me wanting to argue about everything.

As far as making anyone think... I dont really desire to change anyones faith. Not saying that it doesnt pain me to see so many people walking around with their collective heads up the governing body's butt. Just the same though, Id say say that Im definately agnostic at this point and while I'm just fine with that, I know that some people need that belief in a higher power to keep them going. Wrong or right, I dont really want to interfere with anyones happiness. Though I dont want to hear the ramblings of the decieved either.

Oddly enough I just had a visit a few minutes ago from some local elders, I dont know if it was coincidence or not. I tried to talk about everything except the jws, but knew it couldnt last forever. While I think I came through unscathed, I know this is just one of many stops that I can expect.

While I feel stupid bitching about my life when I know that I have had it so good and continue to have it so good when compared with so many on this board. I just cant help but think about the changes that my life will be going through. Its like any relationship breakup I guess.

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I might be retarded

by justsomedude in

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just like the subject says.... .

i'm trying to sneak away quietly from the wtbs so maybe i can keep my family and friends, though i know im only dreaming really.

i gave up acting a few months ago and quit going to the meetings, because i just couldnt sit through anymore.

justsomedude

Just like the subject says....

I'm trying to sneak away quietly from the WTBS so maybe I can keep my family and friends, though I know Im only dreaming really. I gave up acting a few months ago and quit going to the meetings, because I just couldnt sit through anymore. I figured faking it for the rest of my life was a price I was willing to pay for my family (who I have always had a good relationship with) not hating me, but I just couldnt pull it off. The last meeting I attended I was actually the watchtower reader and came damn close to saying "make believe God" while I was reading. When I read the mag before the meeting, I was feeling extra sarcastic and was using some artistic license as I was pre-reading. Its kind of funny now, but it would have been pretty horrifying at the time.

At any rate, tonight I went out for a bite to eat with two fairly recently baptised people and stuck my foot in my mouth royale..

As we were walking back to the truck, the subject of new years came up and whether jws celebrate it or not. After I could no longer listen to anymore bullshit under the guise of the bible, I went on a 15 minute rant and did everything short of saying that apostacy was for me. One of the more colorful aspects to my personality is I just cant seem to keep my mouth shut when I hear BS being piled high and deep.

So much for sneaking away. Damn Im stupid.

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non sequiter (comic strip)

by darth frosty in

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this makes me think the writer must be an ex jw.. .

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justsomedude

He's had anti-jw stuff before in his comics. One I remember was about the little girl in his strip going door to door, preaching to JWs about the joys of joining the taliban.

Good stuff.

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Have you seen My Mother. By Bryan McGlothin

by AK - Jeff in

wow.

what a book.

wifey ordered it and i cannot put it down now.. i'll admit to be one of those 'sensitive guys' at times.

justsomedude

I finally recieved the book and started reading last night. I couldnt put the book down. If I didnt have to get up for work this morning I would have read it all the way through.

Get this book.

JSD