ok folks, i know there are some creative people on this board so help me out here.
i'm successfully fading so far, but every now and again i get some well meaning zealot ask me about my missing the 5 weekly brainwashing sessions and the priviledge of hocking crap door to door.
as sort of a reverse reasoning book, lets see some good conversation stoppers that wont give away my position.
I thought about the whole depression thing, but I figured that would just encourage people to be more upbuilding. I want something to just leave the nosy folks cold.
Like:
"Well, I'd like to come to the meetings, but the court order says I cant come within 50 feet of a child."
ok folks, i know there are some creative people on this board so help me out here.
i'm successfully fading so far, but every now and again i get some well meaning zealot ask me about my missing the 5 weekly brainwashing sessions and the priviledge of hocking crap door to door.
as sort of a reverse reasoning book, lets see some good conversation stoppers that wont give away my position.
Im my own man/woman. ; I do what I want. ; Your meetings are boring puke and I refuse to go.
That might be too straight forward. I already have tactless and angry mastered.
ok folks, i know there are some creative people on this board so help me out here.
i'm successfully fading so far, but every now and again i get some well meaning zealot ask me about my missing the 5 weekly brainwashing sessions and the priviledge of hocking crap door to door.
as sort of a reverse reasoning book, lets see some good conversation stoppers that wont give away my position.
Ok folks, I know there are some creative people on this board so help me out here. I'm successfully fading so far, but every now and again I get some well meaning zealot ask me about my missing the 5 weekly brainwashing sessions and the priviledge of hocking crap door to door. As sort of a reverse reasoning book, lets see some good conversation stoppers that wont give away my position.
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i'll start off with... .
when you go to a jw convention and then go to a casino the same night.
Hearing about meetings or service makes your blood boil.
i recieve many pms, emails, and more recently, many thread replies which ask me a simple question.. why are you disassociating yourself?
why not just fade?.
well, here's why.. my mother, and her mother, are in the "truth".
I wish I had your clarity at that age.
each of us has the ability to discern the truth about ourselves and about life in general.
we must use the ability to keep it strengthened against propaganda, manipulation and outright lies.. we know the truth.. others will pressure us in all types of ways to think they have a better truth than the one we know.
they can even persuade us to think untrue things about ourselves.
I dont know that I know the truth, but...... I can cross one big lie off the list.
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when you were a dud (i call it 'dud' not dub..lol), ok how can i put this.....were you 'always on'?
meaning did you always have something to give to people or witness to them at 'every' opportunity or did you look at it as a 'job' where you only gave things out in service?
Even when I wholeheartedly believed it and was a pioneer, I never said anything about it outside of service. Honestly even with my dub friends, we never talked about it.
i'm re-reading 1984 and the similarities between the wtbs and the "party" astound me, but anyway, it made me think of the time when i started to get doubts (thoughtcrime).. i remember once at this book study a sister commented about the 1914 and was reciting it's historical accuracy.
anyway, she went on to mention that the demons were probably learning everything about biblical prophecies from the wtbs.
i was 13 at the time but the comment made me cringe, i was thinking "why would superior beings need humans to interpret the bible for them?
My first around that kind of stuff started with the generation thing like many others. Other suppressed thoughts include.
If what I pray for has to be inline with Jehoobahs will, why pray at all? Wasnt he planning on doing what he willed anyway? Was he just waiting to see if anyone had his back? "Hey God, I got you covered on this. You go ahead and do it."
If we have doctrinal thoughts that differ from the FDS and are then wrong, but later the FDS updates its line of bull and we are then right, did God really want everyone in the dark before?
I know I can come up with more if I think about it.
jsd
i have a question that not many people would understand.
i have faith that despite how crazy it sounds, most on this board will probably know what i am talking about though.
i'm on the path to leaving this cult that has been a part of my life for more than 27 years.
Hey All,
Thanks for the kind words and understanding. It took me a few days till I could even come back and look at this, I just needed to get my head back on straight really.
I know that every expierience in life shapes who you are as a person and as long as you like yourself, there had to have been some value to what you have done up until now. Sometime though it just feels like a day where you've over slept and wasted the day and you know that if you would have just been awake when you should have been, you could have accomplished so much more.
Thanks again for the encouragement. Throwing a pity party for myself really isnt my style, but the last couple of weeks have been kind of hard, so Im very thankful that I have a place to vent, even if I never actually get to meet the people Im spilling my guts to.
JSD
You must hate what God hates! P.S. God is love
