Welcome and I'm glad you shared your story.
I was faded over 20 years when I found this site and had a similar reaction to you, Aud, and many others here. I was literaly shaking as I read different stories. It's that sense of wonderment that I was not the only one...............I had sort of felt that It was my shortcoming, even though I did not feel it was the truth, I still felt that it was pretty close.
My husband's worried that I'm becoming obsessed. I'm not really
hmmm, my husband has said that too, I think I am really, but It's a good obsession!
Best wishes
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