My first inkling that I wanted out, was that I dreaded going to the meetings. I was happy afterwards, becuase it was OVER. I liked to see people, but I squirmed at the long, boring meetings.
Then, we had to go to a district convention in Tampa. There, a woman got up on the podium and said how terrible college was. She quit college and went back to pioneering. I was about 15 years old, and wanted to go to college. My parents told me I was going to college, but to just ingore this person and not say a thing about it a the Hall. They had gone to college after 1975. So, i felt a disconnect that it was ok to not believe everything the WTS said. This was about 1983.
In 1984/85ish, I had advanced placement classes, physics, math, etc. Even though this stuff was "hard", it was easy and I clearly understood every step in the problems and theories. But, I couldn't wrap my head around 1914. It seemed like the WTS was jumping through the Bible to make it say what they wanted. Their reasoning didn't sit right with me. If this was such an important date, why didn't Jehovah just say so. Why did He have to make it jumping around the bible, squinting your eye, to read that the "Generation of 1914 would not pass away." At the same time, I had harder classes and now a part-time job. I didn't feel like going out in service, becuase the teachings just didn't smell right to me. So, it was pretty easy to let my door-to-door drop. Then, an elder approached me. I told him I wanted to go to college, and disagreed with the assembly teacher. He tried to tell me that college was bad, but he, himself, was a doctor! So, I called him out on it. I just saw it all so hypocritical. I pretty much just left/faded/went on to college, career, started a family after that. But, I still didn't know TTAT.
Then, in 2004/2005, it was www.ajwrb.org that led me to really question. Once I saw the blood faction hypocrisy, I lost any shred of JWism. I saw the WTS in the same light as the twisted tongue of Satan.
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