"Catholic Christianity has caused so many problems for me. As much as I hate to say it, a lot of damage has been done to me by it. I have not been able to attend church for a month because I panic there!!!! The more honest I am with myself, the less plausible my system feels to be. I've pretty much lost the faith part. But I have not lost the fear part. I cannot. Eternal damnation is not something I want to be wrong about. But staying in the system hasn't helped me either. Heck, I feel guilty simply by posting here. And there seems to be no escape from all this guilt...I am completely and utterly burnt out by believing in this stuff." ( A quotation from Ex-Christian.net / FAQs / Fear of Hell / Poster's username: Rosa Mystica ).
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"I am Completely and Utterly Burnt Out by Believing in this Stuff."
by scout575 in"catholic christianity has caused so many problems for me.
as much as i hate to say it, a lot of damage has been done to me by it.
i have not been able to attend church for a month because i panic there!!!!
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Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
by scout575 in"have i not commanded thee?
be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the lord thy god is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
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"Have I not commanded thee? Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest." ( Joshua 1:9 )
"And they utterly destroyed all that was in the city, both man and woman, young and old, and ox, and sheep, and ass, with the edge of the sword...So the LORD was with Joshua...So Joshua smote all the country of the hills, and of the south, and of the vale, and of the springs, and all their kings, he left none remaining, but utterly destroyed all that breathed, as the LORD of Israel commanded." ( Joshua 6:21,27;10:40 )
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"Its Just so Damn Good to be Out."
by scout575 in"i still have trouble with depression, sometimes.
lately its been bad.
but boy, i haven't felt the the kind of endless, abysmal blackness that i used to feel when i was a depressed christian.
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"I still have trouble with depression, sometimes. Lately its been bad. But boy, I haven't felt the the kind of endless, abysmal blackness that I used to feel when I was a depressed Christian. There's just so much weight lifted now that I don't give a shit whether or not there's a sky-daddy judging me or not. F**k him, I can't be anything other than what I am, and if that's not good enough for Biblegod, he can go f**k himself."
"So, I think in my case, Christianity didn't provide any relief, it actually ended up feeding my illness, which, in the long run may have done more damage, I don't know."
"Its just so damn good to be out, I can't even describe it." ( A quotation from: Ex-Christian.net / FAQs / Religion and Mental Health / Post# 20 / Poster's username: gwenmead ).
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Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
by scout575 in"he is the rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgement: a god of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he.
" ( deuteronomy 32:4 ).
"the lord shall send upon thee cursing, vexation, and rebuke, in all that thou setteth thine hand unto for to do, until thou be destroyed, and until thou perish quickly...the lord shall make the pestilence cleave unto thee, until he have consumed thee...the lord shall smite thee with a consumption, and with a fever, and with an inflamation, and with an extreme burning, and with the sword, and with blasting, and with mildew; and they shall pursue thee until thou perish.
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"He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgement: a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he." ( Deuteronomy 32:4 )
"The LORD shall send upon thee cursing, vexation, and rebuke, in all that thou setteth thine hand unto for to do, until thou be destroyed, and until thou perish quickly...The LORD shall make the pestilence cleave unto thee, until he have consumed thee...The LORD shall smite thee with a consumption, and with a fever, and with an inflamation, and with an extreme burning, and with the sword, and with blasting, and with mildew; and they shall pursue thee until thou perish." ( Deuteronomy 28:20,21,22 )
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"Furious at How Horrible this Religion Turned Out to Be."
by scout575 in"the old testament atrocities are what did it for me ( revisiting them honestly ).".
"tonight my wife is watching, "joni" and she is talking about abortion, and she is saying that if you don't think abortion is barbaric and that the fetus can't feel pain then you are tragically mistaken.".
"don't you think the "sucklings" that god had the israelites slaughter by the sword could feel pain in a majorly significantly more profound way?".
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"The Old Testament atrocities are what did it for me ( revisiting them honestly )."
"Tonight my wife is watching, "Joni" and she is talking about abortion, and she is saying that if you don't think abortion is barbaric and that the fetus can't feel pain then you are tragically mistaken."
"Don't you think the "sucklings" that God had the Israelites slaughter by the sword could feel pain in a majorly significantly more profound way?"
"Truly heartbroken over the bullshit lie Christianity turned out to be. Heartsick and heartbroken that I followed it for so long. I have really good days, but today I am heartbroken and seriously furious at how horrible this religion turned out to be." ( A quotation from: Ex-Christian.net / Ex-Christian life / So Disappointed / Poster's username: Mike ).
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Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
by scout575 in"thou shalt not avenge nor bear any grudge against the children of thy people, but thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself, i am the lord.
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"but if ye will not hearken unto me...i will do this unto you: i will even appoint over you terror, consumption, and the burning ague, that shall consume the eyes, and cause sorrow of heart...i will also send wild beasts among you, which shall rob you of your children.
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"Thou shalt not avenge nor bear any grudge against the children of thy people, but thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself, I am the LORD." ( Leviticus 19:18 )
"But if ye will not hearken unto me...I will do this unto you: I will even appoint over you terror, consumption, and the burning ague, that shall consume the eyes, and cause sorrow of heart...I will also send wild beasts among you, which shall rob you of your children." ( Leviticus 26:14,16,22 )
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"Breaking Away From it Can at Times Seem Impossible."
by scout575 in"i thought i was delivered from the bondage of cultism and "free" in my re-discovered "personal relationship with jesus christ".
nevertheless, it took me several more years to realize that i had substituted the cult-organization that clearly defined mormonism with the cult of born again christianity.".
"in many respects, i believe it may be even harder for a "born again christian" who has lost faith to come out of his/her own cult than it would be for a jehovah's witness or a mormon.
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"I thought I was delivered from the bondage of cultism and "free" in my re-discovered "personal relationship with Jesus Christ". Nevertheless, it took me several more years to realize that I had substituted the cult-organization that clearly defined Mormonism with the cult of born Again Christianity."
"In many respects, I believe it may be even harder for a "Born Again Christian" who has lost faith to come out of his/her own cult than it would be for a Jehovah's Witness or a Mormon. JWs and Mormons have an organization to leave. When they get out, they realize that this organization and those who ran it had an unhealthy control on very intimate aspects of their lives. Many Born Again Christians have formed such a strong fantasy in their mind of their "relationship with Jesus", that breaking away from it can at times seem impossible. Indeed, I believe some never do. Some live their entire lives in dysfunction and unhappiness because in their subconscious they have bought into the lie that there really is a Jesus-God that they are running from. How often did you hear someone say something to the effect that, "Backslidden Christians are some of the most miserable people?" ( A quotation from: Ex-Christian.net / Ex- Christian life / How long have you been out of Christianity? / Post# 78 / Poster's username: Johnny Smith ).
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Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
by scout575 in"but the lord said unto samuel, look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because i have refused him: for the lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the lord looketh on the heart.
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"thus saith the lord of hosts, i remember that which amalek did to israel, how he laid in wait for him in the way, when he came up from egypt.
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"But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart." ( 1 Samuel 16:7 )
"Thus saith the LORD of hosts, I remember that which Amalek did to Israel, how he laid in wait for him in the way, when he came up from Egypt. Now go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare them not; but slay both man and woman, infant and suckling, ox and sheep, camel and ass." ( 1 Samuel 15:2, 3 )
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Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde.
by scout575 in"and the lord their god shall save them in that day as the flock of his people: for they shall be as the stones of a crown, lifted up as an ensign upon his land.
for how great is his goodness and how great is his beauty!
corn shall make the young men cheerful, and new wine the maids.
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"And the LORD their God shall save them in that day as the flock of his people: for they shall be as the stones of a crown, lifted up as an ensign upon his land. For how great is his goodness and how great is his beauty! Corn shall make the young men cheerful, and new wine the maids." ( Zechariah 9:16,17 )
"And this shall be the plague wherewith the LORD will smite all the people that have fought against Jerusalem; their flesh shall consume away while they stand upon their feet, and their eyes shall consume away in their holes, and their tongue shall consume away in their mouth." ( Zechariah 14:12 )
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"My Grief over Wasting 10 Years of My Life"
by scout575 in"ex-christians are angry because they are grieving... i voluntarily spent 10 years of my life pursuing a godly life.
my fantasy was that i was spending my time well and becoming a better person by following god.
my grief over wasting 10 years of my life, is grief over giving up the fantasy.".
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"Ex-Christians are angry because they are grieving... I voluntarily spent 10 years of my life pursuing a godly life. My fantasy was that I was spending my time well and becoming a better person by following god. My grief over wasting 10 years of my life, is grief over giving up the fantasy."
"Grief usually leads to anger. Embrace your anger for a while but don't let it consume you. Read a book on grief; you have suffered a great loss. Your anger is justified but remember it will pass and there will be sunny skies. You are free! I am free! This is wonderful!!!!" ( Ex-Christian.net / Rants and replies / Anyone else go through an anger stage deconverting? / post# 33 )