Welcome to the forum!
Now...with that said, MY two cents
To the new convert it DOES seem nice. The idea of a worldwide brotherhood, the esoteric terms that are used and the strict moral codes. It's seems on the outside very nice to those that are looking for a whiff of "fresh" air in their life. Let's face it, we are ALL looking for something, whether it's love, the meaning of life, ect. For some peole it's God; or the concept of him/her. The society gives such a simplistic answer to such questions for those that are hurt, beat down and depressed with this world. And on the outside it LOOKS nice.But is he/she easy to peg?
What interests me is that you've been studying with them for 4 years and not in their eyes "progressed" in making a dedication, which tells me that you are "making sure of all things" which is VERY important for those that don't know how intrusive this religion will be. It involves COMPLETE dedication to the point of saying you are nothing more than a lamb, a slave in their eyes. And that you have to follow a certain qouta that Jesus never put on his fellow lovers of the real truth. They have "rules" that are unkindly yolks to those that have toiled under them for YEARS. Those that were raised in the "truth" can tell you likewise.
If you like to be told what to do be a witness.
If you like to study ONLY from their sources, be a witness.
If you like information spoonfed to you, be a witness.
If you want to escape from the mafia, be a witness.
This is not negative my friend, but a fact. A fact that I know, no but beg you to consider.
Start from the beginning, please...and learn why this religion became apostate from what Russell had started. And please you must read the back issues of their doctrines. And read the Bible in Living english, and then their N.T translation. Read who translated the Living English version. And keep in mind that the society sacntioned it in that time long ago.
Interesting that you must read only their sources, and when the sunday talk is being given, you stick to THEIR outline.
If you like reruns, be a witness.
If you like to be a parrot....be a witness.
I have become drained from their doctrines, and although I'm grateful that I have a set of morals and follow the golden rule, I too am on that road in life in finding out just what IS siprituality.
I hope that you'll come to that conclusion my freind. Whether you'll want to stay with them or not.
You have my respect nontheless.
Thanks for reading, and take care.
jojochan.