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  Sad doggie news.....

  by Alana in

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  i know i don't post much, but this board has been a source of confort to me in my journey out of the borg.

  that is why i want to share with my online friends that my beagle, remington, is very ill and i would appreciate all your thoughts and prayers.

  he is only 8-yrs-old and is my baby.

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  Alana, I'm so sorry. Hugs.... I don't have the words to make any difference, but I sure wish I did.
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  In memory of Jeff...

  by nsrn in

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  i was just remembering a childhood friend.

  jeff was 2 years older than me, and our mothers were good friends, lifelong witness sisters.

  jeff's dad was 'worldly,' and i can remember being envious that jeff didn't have to go out in service and was allowed to miss many meetings.

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  As an adult, I have almost taken comfort in the knowledge that Jeff was spared dying a slow, painful death from AIDS. We lost almost a whole generation of artistic, sensitive, and creative men--and sometimes I saw Jeff's eyes in those haunting pictures of the first AIDS victims...

  (absolutely NO intention of offending anyone or stereotyping...just what's on my mind tonight...)
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  In memory of Jeff...

  by nsrn in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i was just remembering a childhood friend.

  jeff was 2 years older than me, and our mothers were good friends, lifelong witness sisters.

  jeff's dad was 'worldly,' and i can remember being envious that jeff didn't have to go out in service and was allowed to miss many meetings.

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  Jeff's dad died that spring. I spent a lot of time with him--he was so sad, and sick, and he reminded me so much of Jeff! I went with him to a gun dealer and we sold that old gun (they needed the money, and wanted rid of the gun). That was surreal...
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  In memory of Jeff...

  by nsrn in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  i was just remembering a childhood friend.

  jeff was 2 years older than me, and our mothers were good friends, lifelong witness sisters.

  jeff's dad was 'worldly,' and i can remember being envious that jeff didn't have to go out in service and was allowed to miss many meetings.

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  nsrn

  
  I was just remembering a childhood friend. Jeff was 2 years older than me, and our mothers were good friends, lifelong witness sisters. Jeff's dad was 'worldly,' and I can remember being envious that Jeff didn't have to go out in service and was allowed to miss many meetings. When he did come, he always had a notebook and was allowed to draw during meetings (I was required to appear to be paying attention, being an elder's kid and a good example.) But Jeff was a wonderful artist. I remember sitting by him at meeting, eagerly awaiting the next sketch out of the corner of my eye.

  He was quiet and thoughtful. At elementary school, we were the only 2 witness kids for years, and we spent every Halloween, Christmas, and Valentines party together in the hallway or library. It was the one thing that made that bearable--looking forward to to playing that miniature chess game of his.

  As a teen, Jeff had it tough at home and at school. His dad had terminal lung cancer. His dear granny died. They had big financial trouble. And he became more obviously different. Introspective, uneasy, sensitive, and depressed. I still looked for him eagerly in the hallway at school, and gloated at having a protective 'big brother' that saved me a seat at lunch at the senior's table! He came rarely to meetings, but I'll never forget one 'get together' squaredance where we were partners.

  Remember this was 1977. Depression was not as publicly discussed, and antidepressants were not nearly as common as now. And Jeff, bless his heart, was gay. There was no chance he would get his dream of art school in New York. There was just no chance for this gentle soul to have a life in our little redneck town.

  So that January he cleaned out his locker, and turned in his homework early. He cleaned his room and emptied his pockets. And he took his grandpa's old pistol out to the grape arbor behind the garage, settled down in the snow, and shot himself in the head.

  I won't bore you all with the details of my intense grief at age 15. I'm tearing up thinking about it. I'll always remember how Dad and I went out to that grape arbor and scraped up all that bright red snow by flashlight, so Jeff's mom wouldn't have to see it again.

  My dad gave his funeral talk, to the immediate family only. He says it was one of the hardest things he ever did. (see my old posts--my dad was one of the good guys). None of Jeff's few friends, including me, were allowed at the funeral. My mom said it was better that his folks didn't have to deal with a bunch of emotional teenagers.

  I finally found his grave, at a little country cemetery, and cried over his headstone. "May Jehovah remember my only son".

  I'm sorry this is so long. But I'm still missing him.
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  WILL THE ELDERS D'F ME FOR MOVING OUT? Today is the DAY!

  by stillAwitness in

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  i am in the process of packing all of my stuff into my little 4 door mitsubishi (which i have to bring back of course since my mom won't let me keep the car) with just $255 to my name.

  here's my previous story: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/9/116282/1.ashx.

  its both an exciting and scary time for me but i did have one important question to ask:.

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  It's time...change is uncomfortable, but overdue. You'll be okay. Sometimes it is impossible to fade neatly--sometimes you have to make a choice and take a stand. Are you in or out?

  I'm out!
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  Crisis of Conscience

  by mavie in

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  2. friends

  before i am criticized for this, please understand the difficulty of having this book in the house while still a jw.

  i was hoping to find this book or portions of it online.

  please pm me if you have any details.

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  If you ebay, start a search for 'Raymond Franz' and you'll find both books available.
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  Newbie intro

  by Just as I am in

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  i have been lurking here for a few months now, reading all the net soup archived postings and wanted to make an intro.

  i've never posted to a forum before, so please excuse anything not in proper form!

  like many of you, i was born and raised jw, third generation.

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  Welcome! Great post! (I think you must be my long lost twin or something...we have lots in common!) Great to have you here!
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  Masturbation quotes

  by 5thGeneration in

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  i didn't want these buried deep in the favorite quotes thread because they are just too dang funny and/or weird.

  *** watchtower 1973 sept 15 pp.564-5 breaking free of self-abuse-why?

  that masturbation is abnormal and unnatural is also indicated by the fact that abnormal, mentally deranged people are notorious masturbators.

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  Breaking Free from Self Abuse-- I SO remember when that article came out. I was a young adolescent. I didn't know anyone ELSE ever did such a thing (like I'd discovered something no one else knew?!?!?!) And I was certain I was doomed. Swore I'd never do it again, then fail.....terrified that my folks would want to discuss the newest magazine over dinner...afraid I was gay or mentally ill (like my sister, in a state hospital at the time)...
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  Be Careful Whom You Tell You're A Witness

  by RevFrank in

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  2. friends

  a friend of mine had a little different happening.

  i'll call her andi.

  well andi was a witness, single, and decided to go visit a bar she heard about in san bernadino california.

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  There are JW's working in medical records at my place of employment, too. Our hospital makes a HUGE deal about HIPPA with annual manditory education, etc. Hope they paid attention.

  That Awake article failed to mention a third scenario: Mary approaches the sister, who tells her 'how dare you...say one word and I'll have your house/job/insurance/4-door sedan...my attorney will be contacting you.' Forth scenario: Mary approaches the sister, who draws her loaded concealed weapon...

  Sorry, my imagination is running wierd. (Sleepless night)

  Has there been any further mention of the federal privacy act in the literature? Seems like a lawsuit for breach of confidentiality could include the borg, since the instruction in that Awake is to violate the law.
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  Where is Gumby???

  by mouthy in

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  havent heard for awhile on here????

  i have so many grandkids on here have to check up on them???

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  nsrn

  OMG! What if he's gone APOSTATE?!?!?!?!?! (Or maybe he's just taking a ride on Pokey.)

  Seriously, tho, I do love to read his posts.