today was one of the hardest days i've had yet since leaving jw.
i was barely able to work, and i have a knot in my stomach.. i look at the world situation and i feel so hopeless and helpless.
knowing there are millions of people outside of the u.s. that, if you were to put a button in front of them that had a label below it that said "kill every man woman and child in the u.s.a." that they wouldn't even hesitate to press it.. i wonder where it will end.
Thanks all for your comments. I have days where everything seems so empty and pointless. I guess I tend to the "glass is half-empty" type.
Michelle, I had a great time at your place this weekend, thanks again for your hospitality, and thanks for your post. Your kids are the cutest, Emma Kate especially cracks me up.
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what was one thing you did and really wanted to do when you left the jw's;what you couldn't do because of the organization?.
mine was martial arts.
Reading religious/philosophical books not published by the borg.
I also sport a goatee now, I've received many compliments on it.
today was one of the hardest days i've had yet since leaving jw.
i was barely able to work, and i have a knot in my stomach.. i look at the world situation and i feel so hopeless and helpless.
knowing there are millions of people outside of the u.s. that, if you were to put a button in front of them that had a label below it that said "kill every man woman and child in the u.s.a." that they wouldn't even hesitate to press it.. i wonder where it will end.
Today was one of the hardest days I've had yet since leaving JW. I was barely able to work, and I have a knot in my stomach.
I look at the world situation and I feel so hopeless and helpless. Knowing there are millions of people outside of the U.S. that, if you were to put a button in front of them that had a label below it that said "Kill every man woman and child in the U.S.A." that they wouldn't even hesitate to press it.
I wonder where it will end. These people HATE us, and desperately want to see us DEAD. How long can the U.S. hold off the barbarians at the gate? It seems like the pattern of history is, great civilizations rise, then start to rot internally, and eventually are destroyed by barbaric forces from outside.
I'm so afraid to die. I long for the security I felt in the org.
I feel like I'd be better off ending my life than living through the coming hell.
It seems man can't live with consciousness and uncertainty, and therefore animalistic barbarism is the unconscious choice that many are making.
i havent posted much here, but ive read a lot for about six months now.
although most everyone here appears to have had some degree of affiliation with the jw organization, the individual posters seem to be from pretty diverse backgrounds.
im really curious about something.
I hated people, and JW's were nice to me, and said that Jahoover was going to kill all the bad people - very soon(tm). I was all for that.
i absolutely detested the watchtower study.
never did an hour go by so slow.
there would the 20 or so paragraphs that had to read and answered, and i would watch the clock.
The Memorial!!!! God that meeting was so weird. You'd be sitting at a seat along the side wall of the auditorium. They pass the plate with the bread to you, you hold it for a second, and then pass it back. It cracked me up, it was so silly. What the hell was the point? The elders making their long prayers about what an important sales pitch solemn occasion it was, the uncomfortable silence while the emblems were being passed around (made even worse by corny kingdumb smellodies being played over the PA), seeing all the unbelieving mates and once-a-year dubs, the occasional annointed one who partakes (you know, Sister Prozac) My last couple of years in I had to drag myself to it.
If I ever make a post saying I'm going back to the borg, just say "Dan, this means that you'll have to attend the MEMORIAL!!!"
yes, how bold are you.
i sense that some like to throw their weight around on forums of this nature.
in person, what are you like?
Well, being a sensitive 5' 7" and 135 pound male, I don't engage in too much bar brawling. Geesh, if I even walk into a bar, it's like "who let the little dude in???"
I tend to be the conflict-avoidance type. Hence you won't see me post very often on a controversial thread.
for those that have entirely left, what was it that first got you seriously thinking that this really wasn't the truth?
for those that may be in just mentally, you can answer too....
I remember a bro giving a service meeting part. This was around 1999 or so. He started off with all the standard stuff, how blessed Jerhover's people are, all the wonderful stuff He's done for us. I was really enjoying the talk, as I was more or less still a believer at the time. But then -
"So the question is friends..." (long dramatic pause) "Are you doing all you can to serve Jerhover?" (He said it in a really condescending, guilt-tripping sort of way. And of course this statement was made in regards to FS)
You know, I had heard it a million times before, but for some reason this time I had a different reaction to it. I actually rolled my eyes at him, and he definitely noticed me. He was kind of cool towards me after that. For some reason that incident stands out in my mind. That was the second of three congos I attended during my brief tenure in the troof. I couldn't stand the elders, especially the PO, and he was a sub CO, and everybody thought he was just the greatest. I thought he was an idiot.
i was considering revealing my identity soon, but had a thought.
although i'm not active, i am well respected by my family and the witnesses from my past.
perhaps i could do more good for my family/friends and massive damage to the wt if i was to become active again.
I saw some christian churches but no kingdom halls. I'm sure there are witnesses there but I doubt very many.
Actually there are over 200,000 dubs in Japan, if I'm not mistaken.
i spent an hour looking at this site and decided to join.
i was a jw from 1973 to 1986. yikes!
not a smart thing to do.
welcome to the best db on the net
after speaking with my jw friend, i asked "do you consider me a worldly person and not a true christian?".
they asked "what do you mean and where did you hear that".
i said that i had gotten into a conversation with some former (you all) jw's and they said that even though i attend church, jw's don't accept me as a 'true' christian and i'm called a worldly person.
Ask your friend what their definition of "is" is
I made a funny!!!
