Str8?, welcome to JWD, glad you found us.
every so often, I really want to have the assuredness of knowing my Mum would stop and hug me if she saw me in the street.
From someone who is old enough to be your mum, it's hard to believe that she wouldn't hug you. I am sure she would want to. Unfortunately, JWs have what they call a "bible trained conscience." This causes them to behave in ways which are unnatural and unChrist-like.
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