does anyone remember the intentional murder of a young jw brother named kevin foote.
he and his wife lived in queens, ny- they had a house in long island, ny, etc.. i was in the same pioneer class with kevin.
he was a very nice young brother who loved his wife and son dearly.
looking glass...
remember me? Reminder, Willie Carlson case???
I remember that because the Truax's went to my hall in Libertyville, Illinois. Mike Truax (I may have the spelling wrong) went to my hall, I think it was his brother that murdered his wife. I have been thinking about that murder because I ran into Mike at a mall recently, he kind of stared at me (I am guessing he remembered me too). Then not too long after that murder, Willie killled his parents....
Nikki
I went up to go to the bathroom once, and tripped over my dads breifcase, and feel flat on my stomach, I had a red skirt on, and those that turned around saw my underwear. The whole KH was slient, even the speaker. I had to give a talk in the "C" room too, I walked as fast as I could out of there, and cried my eyes out because I was so humiliated, the main reason is because I had a crush on a boy at the hall. It was quite the site and hilarious.
My mom and I had to give an experience on the stage about me being a teenager in the org and how I had changed overtime. One of the topics was how I used to do my hair. Well, it was the late 80s so at one point, my mom asks me, "and what did I used to say about your hair Nikki?", I responded with, "you told me I looked like a rooster". The hall was in tears laughing, personally it was not that funny, to me it was funnier not being able to talk on stage until everyone stopped laughing.
another poster had the topic about your last meeting, but what really stands out for me is my last time in service.
it was a nice day and i was trying to keep up appearances.
i offered the rags a one door and the householder took them (i didn't bother with the donation spiel.
My last day in field service was my last in the org. It was part of the plan, I left that same night. Thats why it was memorbale.
where do i begin?
well let's see i'm 24yrs old and since i was 5 i've been taught ''the truth'' i remember going to the hall when i was a little girl with my grandmother i attended did the bible study and i learned a lot and i'm greatfull even though i'am no longer in the religion i grew up like everyone else saw and learned a lot of other things of this world none which have made me belive anything i have found myself asking lately what is happening with this world?
why doesn't doesn't jehovah do something and stop the pain for everyone?
Yes, I am lacking in faith. But, I do not find myself to be unhappy about it. I know and see now is now, and whatever happens happens. If I have a question, I do not feel as if I need them answered all the time or ever for that matter. I have 2 beautiful children, and one on the way. I have a wonderful husband, I have true friends, I live comfortably, I feel great. Yet, I had none of this in the org and I did all the things I was suppose to do. So what if I don't have faith, it does not stop me from living. The org is too much, its not right. I love life very much and I will continue to live it like I do now without the cult. For me, a lack of faith (OK, maybe I have none spiritually) just does not make me unhappy, I am fine without it. I just double checked my brain to make sure I wasn't kidding myself, and again I confirm, no faith is OK for me.
i've been a member of the site for a month, but have been reading the posts for a lot longer, however this is my first post.
i was raised a j-dub by my mother (my father wasn't religious) with my sister and brother.
i was pretty much convinced by my dub friends, bible study conductor, and mother that i should get baptized when i was 15 and decided to go for it.
Hi jrjr4189...
I had a similiar situation happen to me back in 1992. My mom and dad were the only ones in the org in our family and so when I left I had alot of support from other family members and friends who were not JWs. Yet, the shunning thing from my mother and father was so tough, even though I felt they were abusive while I was in the org. I was an only child. If I did have the outside support I did, I still think I would be stuck there but maybe not, I never thought I had the guts to leave. Anyway, I never wrote a letter. I just left (I even went out in service the entire day on the day I left). My dad eventually found where I was. He would keep calling to see if I had committed fornication yet. I would tell him the truth, no, no, no, and then yes. I did not sleep with my boyfriend right away, I was too scared. Well, eventually I wasn't scared anymore. So, the night I told my elder father that I had committed fornication, one week later I was disfellowshipped. That was it. Oh, I did go to one meeting, and that was my finall confirmation that I again did not want to be a JW. You have to do what you have to do, every situation is different. With this cult, people are so concerned about getting out, how to write a letter, have a feeeling of being scared to get out, this just isn't right. Yet, I know it is so tough. Best wishes to you.
i'm too lazy to search out the earlier thread asking if j. cano, the alleged bethel pedophile, had ever had his photo in either a wt or awake!
magazine.
i was sorting through some magazines, and was struck by this cover pic which looks a lot like him:.
Cano had a different shaped face, this guy has a long face. I see the mag is from 2003, but this guy is anywhere from 26-32 of age. I am 100% its not him.
i'm too lazy to search out the earlier thread asking if j. cano, the alleged bethel pedophile, had ever had his photo in either a wt or awake!
magazine.
i was sorting through some magazines, and was struck by this cover pic which looks a lot like him:.
Cano looks much much older than this guy, I don't think its him
a very convincing and timely demonstration on the dangers of the internet!
http://www.box.net/public/j2uoneqjfe.
if you can't get this to run, i will be more than happy to pm it to you if you can stomach it.
I have not heard a clip from a certain talk (wherever it may be, KH, convention, etc) since October 1992. I had to turn it off too, I felt embarrassed for him
while you were a witness, is there anything in particular that you'll never forget happening?
There are 2 many things, but quite frequently think about 2 main things:
1. The Willie Carlson murder of his parents. I went to highschool with him, always used to tell on me (I lead a teenage double life). One Tuesday night meeting, he started talking to me, he looked very strange, his face was all broken out. We had the book study at our house on Thursday, Willies dad was the conductor. Willie and his parents did not show up on Thursday. By the following Sunday, his dad did not show up for a public talk. Willie had murdered his parents, my dad found the bodies. People slept at our house for 2 weeks. My parents had to testify. At the funeral, this woman came up to me and said "Now, don't you go doing something like that". This woman, at the beginning of April this year, killed her daughter, stabbed her three times. They were still wittnesses in Elgin, Ilinois. She snapped. I have talked about these two things before on this site.
2. When I was 17, this 32 year old (my dad's good friend) wanted to put me into an apartment when I turned 18 and then we would make plans to marry. We never did anything. When he approached my parents about it, the very same day, my parents put a 4 sale sign outside the house, and within a month, we moved 60 miles north. They gave me no emotional support, it was a scandal in the congregation. There was a goodbye party thrown for us, there was music and dancing, it was filmed. On film, there is a clip of my dad yelling at me in front of everyone for the way I was dancing, (eventually when my mom left the org, she threw that video away, it hurt her too much). I was so depressed at that time. Looking back, I am glad I did not marry that older man, but I just wanted some support from my parents, they treated me like I had been sneaking off this man, yet from the beginning, I was completely honest, and never did anything that was against the JW standard of living, terrible time.
Nikki
i decided post jws that i was walking the walk and talking the talk but deep down...wasnt buying it.
i really wasnt.
but i couldnt say anything to anybody because that was part of what was expected of us.
I too was raised in the org. Never knew anything else. When I was 15 is when I started to realize something wasn't sitting well with me. Many terrible things started to happen within the congregation(s) I went to in a short period of time. I started to notice people "snapping" all of a sudden. Maybe it was because I was old enough to understand, regardless I left 3 years later. For comfort, while I was regular pioneering, I would dream of my escape, I would dream of all that I would do, and it was a light at the end of the tunnel. My thoughts would tell me to stop thinking this way, its Satan doing this, but why did I feel so happy looking forward/dreaming about leading a normal life.
Nikki
