when i was a witness, i was told that a responsible witness purchased a car that was able to be used in field service.
as an example, it would have four doors to allow easy entry for a car group of 4 to 6 people.
it was something that was not to showy, meaning it was not a lexus or something that would make it seem that witnesses were materialistic, especially when working a poor part of the community.
Um, that would be a big fat no. HELL no, even. I drive a jeep. A two-door (when they're on), topless (the JEEP!) blue piece of heaven that is my therapy. And I got hassled about it endlessly... "Sister, have you thought of getting something more "practical?"" "No, Brother Buick. Practical would be demonstrated when I have to pull your 4-door out of a snow-drift..."
~merfi
yesterday i found out from my husband who works with my mom's neighbor, that my sister is pregnant with her third child.
lately my husband and i keep getting this feeling that something is up with the family.
what i am really not understanding is .... .
It still hurts. And it still sucks. And I still have days I want to whine and mope and get mad.
Me too, BSoM... me too. That's when my brother or mom gets an earful on the phone or an eyeful on messenger, or my jeep gets reeeeallly dirty (or clean), or I get a great workout at the gym. It numbs the crap in my head and my heart and chases it a bit further away. It ain't easy, this escape. We can do it. :)
pouring a glass for you and me (clinking glasses) - let's toast to MENTAL FREEDOM! this side is soooo much better to be on.....
Adding my glass... Mental freedom is amazing. ~merfi
maybe i am just reading more into things now than before, but i'm seeing the world differently now....these songs helped
"marching bands of manhatten" - death cab for cutie.
i wish we could open our eyes.
Music has always been huge for me -- turning points, events and whatnot in my life can always be brought to present with whatever song was in my playlist at the time...
My list that was playing around the time I DA'd was:
Shame of Life -- Butthole Surfers
Red Sky -- Thrice
Hate Me -- Blue October
Foxy Foxy -- Rob Zombie
Love and Memories -- O.A.R.
Fever for the Flava -- Hot Action Cop
Santa Monica -- Theory of a Deadman
Move -- Thousand Foot Krutch
Bad Day -- Daniel Powter
Cold -- Static X
Galvanize -- Q-tip, Chemical Brothers
I'm So Sick -- Flyleaf
Our Truth -- Lacuna Coil
Gasolina -- Lil John etc
All played very loud, in the jeep with the top down... part of my therapy as music always is.
~merfi
yesterday i found out from my husband who works with my mom's neighbor, that my sister is pregnant with her third child.
lately my husband and i keep getting this feeling that something is up with the family.
what i am really not understanding is .... .
Shunning me has not made me weaker, it has made me stronger.
This is exactly how I feel right now. Freaking bring it on.... My "friends" of 15+ years (not as long as many of you, nor do I have JW family thank god -- my hugs and heart to you all who do...) are of course shunning me. So I've been forced to break out of the JW shell -- not as thick as I thought -- and make new, true friends. It takes a strength to overcome the sadness of losing "friends", strength to jump into 'the world' and befriend 'bad association', strength to lean on non-JW friends we've been told over and over won't be true... I've found the opposite. My 'wordly' friends, my 'wordly' family have been my stronghold. My JW friends weren't there when I needed them and certainly aren't now.
I think the shunning policy is the most f**d up thing ever -- farthest thing from 'loving' or 'christian' imagined.
Damn cult.
~merfi
i was reading another thread that asked, "do you see yourself remarrying?
" i noticed some of the replies mentioned that getting involved with another xjw would be interesting.
i have thought that also.
Hey Frozen,
my stats:
DA 03/09/06
single
blonde
37yo
your neighbor! (Fiji is my JWD hide-out) in Iowa.
This is all tongue-in-cheek, but feel free to PM me if you wish.
my saga is in early posts.
~merfi
WTH is e-tard?
~merfi
of the drug-dictionary challenged class (and ok with it)
i dont have many baby photos there all at my folks house .
but i found this the other day i think i was only bout 2 here .
so cmon everyone share your baby pics .
Oh sweet jebuz, Danny... lol
Not what I needed to see after working all damn night and thinking I need to sleep a bit today. (but admittedly, pretty funny of ya)
~merfi
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given your past life experiences and your current enlightenment would you ever get into that level of commitment again?.
cab
I just don't know... and funny that this comes up as I'm just barely starting out in the 'dating scene' as a fresh xJW, and free from any sort of relationship for nearly 7 months...
I'm finding I don't care much for this dating thing. lol Too much work, too much stress when the 'spark' is one-sided (not mine).... Plus, my ability to trust, to hand over my heart again and allow someone else "in" like that is a bit impossible right now. Maybe in time, I don't know. But the thought of remarrying right now isn't a good thought. I'm pretty content not being responsible TO anyone, or being responsible FOR anyone ('cept the little people here).
But I'm relatively young -- who knows, something might smack me upside when I least expect it. :)
~merfi
Spinster with 20 Cats class
why aren't witnesses vegetarians?
it's well known that adam and eve were vegetarian.
there was only ever a concession given by god to allow meat eating after the flood as there was no vegetation so it was forced and rather a temporary fix up rather than a new permanent diet.
Reza, sweetie... it really is time to take your medication and slip back into the soft, lavendar-scented straightjacket. C'mon, slowly... here's a nice cookie... c'mon, just a few steps more... leave the nice computer alone now... Here's Mr Pookie-bear, he misses you... little drink of nice water to wash down the nice little pill... there ya go....
~your RN
"Carrot Crunchers Institution"
i finally signed up three of my kids to play ball.
it's been a good run.
they are such good kids.
Congrats! Proud mom moments are awesome...
This school year will be the first one I'm "out", so hoping the kids want to do some sort of sport or other formerly-prohibited extra curricular stuff.
~merfi
