Hello all. I want to thank everyone here for all the help and kind words offered to me as I adjust to having worth. I guess I have a long way to go and I guess I'm going to have to go and see a counselor like someone else suggested.
No matter how hard I work or what I accomplish, I still feel so ugly and I'm still afraid of the stupidest things. I don't know if my fears are on par with paranoia, but they are definitely distracting and I need to get some outside assistance.
The good news is that around here, with people who've gone through the same, I feel better. I know we're all different and still have some pretty big disagreements on some issues, but the fact that we all have the ugliest part of my life in common makes me feel like I'm going to get over all that I've been through.
Thanks everyone.
(lol, 100 Years by Five for Fighting just came on)