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How about a support group that has a counselor or even a member that can relate to what you've been through? I'm just throwing that out there I really have no idea where to start but I do understand not being able to afford the professional therapist/counselor. I'm going to ask around, I don't think you are in my area but I work for a University Hospital. I'll ask what the policy is for those who can't afford or insurance doesn't cover services. Maybe they have some ideas that you could check into in your area.
I'll PM you with any information I find out.
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