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  Things YOU eat, that other people think is weird.

  by misanthropic in

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  this mornings events have got me thinking about things.

  i love peanut butter, not the sweet kind but i like the old fashioned peanut butter, usually laura scudder's with no sugar or preservatives - it just tastes better imo.

  i put it on everything including pancakes which are really good with peanut butter and maple syrup.

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  LOL, OUTLAW. But, I don't scare that easily. Although I feel like a jerk.
  
  But, maybe I sould think before I post instead of putting my foot in my mouth. Yep, I'm a dumbass.
  
  Sorry Misanthropic, I meant no disrespect.
  
  Oh and to add to the post for real this time, when I was a kid I would crumble up saltine crackers and put milk and sugar on them for breakfast.
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  Was There A Time While U Were A Witness That You Were "Looked Down" Upon?

  by minimus in

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  did you ever sense that your own brothers and sisters looked down upon you?

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  After I was re-instated I was told by an elder that "No one has to ever forgive you for what you did, or associate with you"
  
  That was pretty much the end of it for me.
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  Things YOU eat, that other people think is weird.

  by misanthropic in

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  this mornings events have got me thinking about things.

  i love peanut butter, not the sweet kind but i like the old fashioned peanut butter, usually laura scudder's with no sugar or preservatives - it just tastes better imo.

  i put it on everything including pancakes which are really good with peanut butter and maple syrup.

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  Mis,
  
  I have no clue at what your post said. I couldn't read it as I was distracted by that very SEXXXXY pic on your bio. It gave me rather impure thoughts.
  
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  Were you a loud singer?

  by HockeyMullet in

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  i don't know why, but i was just thinking of this guy in my hall that sang so loud that it was embarassing to just be there.

  he sounded like the love child of kermit the frog and miss piggy.

  i remember trying to mimick his voice during one song and getting counseled by one of the bros because i had a few of younger guys laughing.

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  That's funny, I was just thinking abou this yesterday.
  
  I used to "lip-sync" myself or sometimes even stood silent. Especially during my fade, since I didn't want to be there anyways.
  
  I remember as a teen, though my friends and I used to to try and out sing each other, especially at assemblies.
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  Hi - I'm new here too

  by dazednotconfused in

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  30 of my 40 some years on this mortal coil have been spent as a witness.

  once i was old enough to realize the meetings were not a place to play and run around i understood the gravity of my situation.

  "just love jehovah and do his will" i was told.

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  Hello and welcome, I am fairly new to the board as well. Your story is similar to my own, I have family still "in" sort of, and I am neither DF'ed or DA'ed. (then again what's the difference these days) Like so many others here, I did "The Fade" (I hear it's all the rage these days) Suprisingly, I have not been hunted down, yet. From what I gather, all of the locals know my buisness and the mis deeds I have been up to. Anywho, I just wanted to say welcome. I'm sure you will get alot of support and listening ears here. Faded-out
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  O.P

  by Shadower in

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  i have been given a question.what does o.p stand for?

  i have studied the nwt for quite a while and i have no idea what it is .

  can somebody enlighten me please.thanking you.

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  Maybe regarding the WTS it means (B)Organizational Procedure? My .002
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  If You've Faded, Do You Still Consider Yourself a Dub?

  by brunnhilde in

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  i've been thinking about this a lot, because i've chosen to fade and i would never refer to myself as a jdub, but i've read postings from others who do.

  i would have written a letter a year ago but i've got older parents who are upset enough about me just not attending.

  on another thread someone is also leaving and they were advised to tell the jc to do whatever, to not acknowledge that they have any authority.

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  No, I consider myself a "recovering JW" In many ways I feel like a religious alcohalic, that I will never be cured but rather continually recovering. Recovering emotionally and self-esteem wise Recovering my trust in people Recovering financially Recovering my life One day at a time Faded-out
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  I'm new....and I have a rant

  by Faded-out in

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  ok, i apologize for this impromptu introduction/rant, but i am reeling right now and really have no where elso to turn.. let me start off by giving you a little history of what has gotten me to this point.

  this post might be a little long, so you might want to dust off those .

  reading glasses.. anyways, my parents were baptised as dubs in the pre 1975 frenzy to make it to the new system...if they only knew 30 some odd years later...suprise, we are .

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  I tried to explian that to my child, that it's ok to wait until a more mature age to decide and that there is nothing to gain by doing it now. For the record my child is younger than you were and even though smart, very immature emotionally and socially. But I guess that's typical with dub kids.

  I will persue the course you have suggested and if I don't get anywhere my lawyer would love to get his teeth into the dubs, he thinks they are nuts.

  Thanks again....Faded-out
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  I'm new....and I have a rant

  by Faded-out in

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  ok, i apologize for this impromptu introduction/rant, but i am reeling right now and really have no where elso to turn.. let me start off by giving you a little history of what has gotten me to this point.

  this post might be a little long, so you might want to dust off those .

  reading glasses.. anyways, my parents were baptised as dubs in the pre 1975 frenzy to make it to the new system...if they only knew 30 some odd years later...suprise, we are .

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  Auldsoul,

  Thanks for the suggestion, I will have to find out who the CO is in thier circut. My ex and I have joint custody, so the dubs should take my wishes into account.

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  I'm new....and I have a rant

  by Faded-out in

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  ok, i apologize for this impromptu introduction/rant, but i am reeling right now and really have no where elso to turn.. let me start off by giving you a little history of what has gotten me to this point.

  this post might be a little long, so you might want to dust off those .

  reading glasses.. anyways, my parents were baptised as dubs in the pre 1975 frenzy to make it to the new system...if they only knew 30 some odd years later...suprise, we are .

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  OK, I apologize for this impromptu introduction/rant, but I am reeling right now and really have no where elso to turn.

  Let me start off by giving you a little history of what has gotten me to this point. This post might be a little long, so you might want to dust off those

  reading glasses.

  Anyways, my parents were baptised as dubs in the pre 1975 frenzy to make it to the new system...if they only knew 30 some odd years later...suprise, we are

  all still here. They attended and brought me along until I was about school age and then they fell away, until I was about pre-teen and then we went back

  (perfect timing, right...) As a young adult I hated being different and had alot of identity issues, but being that I was a good kid I did as my parents

  wished and went along. We were never really strong in the troof, but were more like "fringers" as I like to call them. My Dad never was never appointed as an

  MS or anything and we did the usual OMG it's the 29th of the month, we better go out in "service" thing.

  So at about 16 or so I was getting pressure to "take the big dip" and get baptised. All of my friends were doing it, so I kind of went along with the crowd

  and did it too. Little did I know what decision would lead to all these years later, I had no idea of the "seriousness" of it at that age. So fast forward a

  few years and this time all of those little dublets I thought were my friends were getting engaged and married, so I decided that it was a good idea for me

  too. (besidedes I was 19 and had needs) Nothing like making big decisions with a clear head.

  After about a week of marriage to this older sister (4 yrs. my sr.) from a "good dub family" I relized what a mistake that was. She passed her self off as

  something she wasn't and married me under false pretense. I was miserable and ended up on prozak and some other depression crap. Little did I know that the

  only reason I was depressed was that I hated my life and my wife.

  So hey, we thought maybe having a kid will make it all better!! Nope wrong again, still miserable. But we had to stay together, the elders said so. So when

  our child was about 2 neither of us could take it anymore, the constant fighting and hating each other. So she left, what a relief. But I soon relized she

  wasn't gonna seal the deal so we could both move on, so I did it. I was DF'ed and went off to see what that "big bad world" had to offer.

  Did the whole partying thing for a bit and didn't like that either. I decided I really missed all of my so called "friends" and went back to get re-instated.

  All the while my ex (who is still a dub) was slandering my name from here to kingdom (never gonna) come, I would learn all of this later.

  During my stint as a shunned "leper" I decided to do some reaserch on th net, I was angry and it made me feel better. I lurked on a couple of sites and read

  alot of stories, that sounded all too familiar. I was really suprised at some of the WTS lies I was learning and didn't know what to think. I ended up

  reading Ray's book, COC and it really put alot of stuff into perspective for me. I am an open minded person and for some time had doubts about some of the

  supposed parallels that the WTS made between them and the bible.

  I decided to continue my re-instatement to appease my family, but was planning my fade even then. So then yadda, yadda I got re-instated and it was a novelty

  for about a week and then basically nobody talked to me again, what a loving group of people. I even had one elder tell me, after I complained to him that I

  was being treated like crap, that "No body has to ever really forgive you for what you did or associate with you." That's nice, I thought, you would think I

  did something personally to him. And this guy is a real piece of work too, man I could tell stories about his "perfect little dub family"

  My fade went pretty well, jumped around to a couple of different halls and attended less and less in each. I think I went from door-door maybe once or twice,

  and yep, I still hated it. Finally dropped out of existance a few years ago, and I can count on one hand with most of my fingers missing how many people ever

  tried to contact me. Sice then my parents drifted away as they have done like a million times and my sibling was DF'ed. And all had been pretty quiet.....

  Until the last few weeks and it seems like I have been bombarded with these a$$-clowns. I ran into one of the guy's I grew up with and he's an elder now.

  Woopie, I'd rather take cousel from a four year old. And he mentioned that he heard I am "living in sin" (I am engaged and yes we live together) but he

  didn't push the issue. I love how even after you leave, they still know all the gossip on you. I mean they didn't care while I was there, why should they

  care now.

  Then another old friend from the hall contacted me to tell me about his new buisness venture. And I ran into another woman the other day as I was shopping

  with my "fornicatin' partner"

  And then the kicker, the thing that this whole post was all about.

  I go and pick up my child for our weekend visit and it (sorry, I don't want to give out the gender) informs me that it has begun to go over the "questions

  for baptism", I think I died a little and probably shat a little too. Waaaaaaaaaaay to young and I don't know what to do. It came up 2 years ago as well, but

  I was able to squash that attempt by writing an objection letter to the elders in thier hall. I talked to my mom about it and she said "i don't agree with it

  either, but what can you do? Maybe you would feel better about it if you went back to meetings, your father and I are." (Yea, that will last like a week)

  I mean come on, this child baptism crap seems to get younger and younger. They should just start dunking them as soon as thier big dumb a$$ dub mothers pop

  em out. What is the difference if they baptize a baby or a pre-pre-teen who has not even hit puberty yet. A child of that age can no more dedicate thier life

  to anything than an infant can. Are they that desperate to have one more number on the ole' talley? It is supposed to be an educated decision based on

  weighing two options, not something your forced to do after being raised on one side for your entire short life.

  I really don't know what to do, I don't think writing will work again, as I was newley faded at that point and still considered a witness. Besides that time

  the child was obsurdly young. Even though, you guy's will love this one. When I wrote the letter, one of thier elders called me and one of the things he said

  was so stupid. I said "the child is to young and inexperienced to make this decision" And he said "what more in life does it need to experience" I just about

  fell over. I don't know, how about being a kid.

  Anyways, I've rambled on long enough. I would gladly accept comments and ideas or experiences from anyone here. Trolls are even welcome to comment, but they

  better be good ones,not your typical "Well the watchtower says" crap.

  I hope to post more in the future, I have alot more stories and views on things that I didn't even get into tonight.

  Thanks for reading.....Faded-out