christy........
i know i probably didn't need to post a reply because i could tell you in person, but maybe it will mean more in writing.
reading this all over again brings back all the hurt and anger i've felt growing up--mom took away my best friend. like you, i don't remember much about growing up--only bits and pieces. and most of my good mememories are of us kids or being with dad. i do remember crying the night you had the fight with mom and wishing dad was home. pretty sure that night was a turning point for us all.
you are such an incredibly strong person. i don't know where you found the strength to go on. you're amazing. everyday i am so thankful that you and randy are in my life. i love you both so much, and i know that now, there is NOTHING that can pull us apart again.
you know how we both love Creed, so to quote "i give you everything i am, and still fall short of what you've done for me."
i love you teenie.
beckaboo :)
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finally got my thoughts gathered to share......
by scootergirl ini am relatively new to the board and have to say have never had such a heartwarming welcome from so many people!
it feels so comforting to make new friends that "understand" where i have come from.. i have read many many stories, and have sat back in awe....wow, what stories.
mine is quite simple, but none-the-less my story.
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REUNION WITH JW SIS AFTER 20 YRS OF SHUNNING
by California Sunshine intoday is mar 25th.
ive decided to write about this and post it when im done.
dont know when that will be.
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thank you andee--you have no idea how bright i see my future now. :)
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My Theory about wild X-JWs
by zenpunk ini was pondering this theory this morning - what do you all think?.
a few months ago i went to visit someone from my last congregation who is now also an x-jw.
what is interesting is that, though completely straight-laced within the congregation, he became absolutely out of control once he left and is now trying to figure out how to get his life together.
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Hi I'm new
by bonovox inok, so i kinda stumbled onto this site.
i have many questions, but first a bit about myself:.
i was born and raised in the truth.
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vi,
i think alot of the venom that is on here comes from years of pent up frustration. you said you are just studying now. well imagine growing up and being warped by the whole WTS your whole life. you might have a little venom too. i'm not condoning all out bashings, but maybe if you try to understand where some of us are coming from it will make more sense. -
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REUNION WITH JW SIS AFTER 20 YRS OF SHUNNING
by California Sunshine intoday is mar 25th.
ive decided to write about this and post it when im done.
dont know when that will be.
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it's so nice to know you're not the only one who this happens to. it took 15 years for my sister and i to be reunited. she left when i was 8 and because of the WT and my parents, i wasn't allowed to see her all the while i lived at home. my older brother left the org when he was 18 and told me that whenever i was ready he could take me to see her. i was totally paralyzed by the fear of what would happen to me if i did, that i chickened out. finally, my sister found me off of the classmates.com website. after 15 years, we saw each other on easter sunday, 2001. looking back now i'm so bitter and angry that the 3 of us kids growing up weren't allowed to be together. teenage years are hared enough without all this dysfunctional shit. and i would also like to thank everyone here for being so great--i don't know that i've ever felt so welcome before.
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Southern Maine/NH ?
by DocBob inlooking for former jws in southern maine and nh.
i was in the kittery maine and portsmouth nh congregations from 1973 - 96. bob
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wish i'd have known about this site and everyone earlier. i used to date a guy from near conway. was out there all the time and usually headed off to portsmouth for the day when he was working. would have been great to have some friends to hang out with.
p.s. could someone please have a moose juice for me? :)
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Anyone from Minnesota?
by scootergirl inlooking for anyone from the st. cloud congregations (i was in the north one)...or surrounding areas.
oh heck, anyone from minnesota is fine!
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hey scootergirl--i think i know you! i also was in st cloud north up until about 2 1/2 yrs ago. so if anyone was from there or a surrounding area of upto about 50-75 miles, let me know.
p.s. scooter and i were toying with the idea of apostapalooza--what do you all think??!?
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does anyone else have problems dating??
by eyegirl ini'm fairly new to leaving the borg (about a year and a half).
just wondering if anyone else has had a hard time adjusting to dating in the real world?
i don't go by the whole 'we better not date unless we're ready to get married'.
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no, i haven't been dating controlling men. first guy i dated (and slept with--my mother calling me a whore to my face the whole time) was very sweet and we planned on getting married. just got to the point that we realized we made better friends than lovers. we're still very close. dated a married man (oops!) in my defense, i didn't know he was married at first, but by the time i found out, the sex was so good i couldn't say no. we're not seeing each other now, but also remain good friends. was going out with a guy for about 2 months--he's divorced (not an ex dubber) with a 6 yr old son. thought things were going fine. met the kid, was spending the night there with the kid home--then out of nowhere he freaks out that things are going too fast (the above things were his decisions--not mine!). i don't take any shit and won't put up with a controlling man. if one tries to be, he's out the door.
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does anyone else have problems dating??
by eyegirl ini'm fairly new to leaving the borg (about a year and a half).
just wondering if anyone else has had a hard time adjusting to dating in the real world?
i don't go by the whole 'we better not date unless we're ready to get married'.
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i'm fairly new to leaving the borg (about a year and a half). just wondering if anyone else has had a hard time adjusting to dating in the real world? i don't go by the whole 'we better not date unless we're ready to get married'. just haven't made the best choices in men.
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What was your crisis
by JG inwhat was your crisis of conscience, moment of clarity, epiphany or realization?
i am so interested in what got you thinking.
blessing to you,.
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i don't know if i really had a crisis. after i left home, i felt such freedom and learned that the world around me was bigger than just the organization i grew up in. i stopped going to meetings and got ratted out by a 'friend' that was recently reinstated. i guess that was a good thing--didn't have to break it to my parents that i wasn't going anymore. i finally got to the point that i refused to be a hypocrite any longer. i liked going to bars, i liked drinking, i liked partying--i liked all the 'bad' things that i wasn't allowed to do while being a 'good' witness. i was reunited with my sister after 15 years (she was df'd when i was 8). my older brother also left, and now the 3 of us are an unbreakable unit. it's so amazing to finally know what unconditional love is and know that no matter what you have someone there to support and love you. i'm almost brought to tears right now just thinking about how much happier i am today.