I was born into the organization. I hated going as long as I can remember. Each meeting I wanted to jump up and
scream and then leave. I never kept it a secret . I have told several jws that anyone that says they enjoy the
meetings was a lier and that was just the way I always felt. If anyone would say how good the meeting was
or how good the information was, I would ask them what it was all about , I never had anyone that could remember.
I always thought that all the printed material was deliberately confusing. I have allways been good at reading
and comprehension. The only time I wondered about my self was when I read the societies crap. I have deliberately
made great efforts to understand what they are trying to say. I actually know most of the doctrines by heart,
like the 1914, 1918, etc. but have never been able to back it up with scripture. I realized a long time ago
that the only way to believe this stuff is by faith alone.
I quit going a couple of years ago and have never felt better. Even by wife has become very irregular. She
has seen alot of problems now. The longer you stay away the more time you have to clear your brain.
The witnesses still come around, and now I look at how pathetic they are, wasting their time running around
wasting their time and gas, pretending to preach the word and trying to believe in something requiring
faith in a man made organization. It is no wonder that jws have such a high percentage of people with
mental problems. One of their favorite sayings is that god will make avery thing clear. They say that
because they know that none of the stuff makes any sense. God is a logical being . He doesnt expect
us to believe in the illogical.