Tell him you told her if you want trust between you both. Explain you regret having done so and if you care for him make him know it. Then you'll know how connected you both are - and help return all of what is between you both back to where it should be - between you both! Life's a conundrum of complex situations in relationships and we're all trying to successfully deal with them but fail time and again -put your trust in those close to you and build it strong. If that fails then it wasn't meant to be -for all sorts of reasons! That's the only advice my heart holds. Others have other methods which I don't get! Be strong and go with your own heart - whatever it might be telling you - don't deny yourself! I've done that with most of my life - mixed up thoughts controlling everything I do instead of rodeoing my beating heart!!!!
R.Crusoe
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I think I did a really bad thing.
by emilyblue ini do not attend the same hall as my boyfriend because he is currently reproved for being involved with me.
i'm not a witness.
he confessed to his elders that he had sex with someone outside of marriage after his second divorce was already final.
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Ah - 'Those were the best years of my life' the rest of society sings about cuts your heart coz for you they were the coldest , unfeeling years of your life! Knowing the best parts of your whole life were torn from you and that it's impossible to revisit to repair. Leaves you with a crippled, disabled emotional history to carry into anything your trying to build from the ruin your feeling.
Thing I'm feeling more than anything is my constantly dripping wounds from being Crusoefied by the betraying kiss of the WTO!
They know the damage they do! They know what they're taking people into! They know the victims they offload by the roadside! They hide it from you disguised as love!
Every WT publication should carry government health warnings - 'Inhaling this material can kill!' - your heart and soul!
I don't think any of the WTO can appreciate the sincerity of the above. It truly ruins peoples lives and abandons them without any acceptance of responsibility for doing so. And knowing these destroyed souls exist, they continue to mislead others - not so much by their beliefs - but by hiding from them the known risks of 'a ruined life' they are inflicting on vulnerable sincere individuals!
The 'What will happen if you ever leave....?' scenarios that others have lived through.
All your sold is 'Good News' when they already know it's been the baadest news some people have ever had! If they were more open and honest about themselves, as they are about other world religions, I could empathise with them.
Knowing the 'Truth' about themselves could set others free before they ever got shackled!
It does feel like a cloak and dagger religion! When you feel the cold blade running through your heart you realise it's too late!
I find many of their beliefs rock solid! What ails me though is that I could never go door to door and pretend I was bringin' 'Good News' to folks whom I clearly knew may end up goin' through the pain I've been through. Havin' my love choked, suffocated and wrenched from my heart. If God is love then I sure got hoodwinked by this 'highly academic' approach to the after life! Hurt me so bad I can't function most days! Stolen happiness, joy and fun from livin' life! And knowing they knew this had happened to previous victims of theirs and didn't warn me is plain wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Happiness!
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Abandonment
by reneeisorym inmost of the time i'm ok with the problem i'm about to discuss.
it just seems that occasionally it hurts me more than others.. for those of you who's family are all jws: it was hard to leave all of your family behind but for whatever reason, it made you happier to go than to stay.
after you left, did you ever get scared that those in your new life would abaondon you as well?
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Friendships or relationships seem frought with uncertainty. One is regularly reminded of the differences you have with their whole life experience. Often they can't get a take on yours unless you go on about all the negatives which then leave you feeling exposed and carrying internal conflicts.You'd love to throw yourself smiling, full of life into new frienships and relationships but know that, unlike others, that's not where you've come from.
And so you feel that any relationships others are forming are very different than any that include you!!
This leaves you looking for 'special' personalities - similar to ones maybe in your past which had a modicum of wholeness about them.
And then you over commit and things feel out of balance and your fault and throw you back into the circles within spirals that are your daily experiences.
I met a woman I could have died for recently. Her look and personality were majical to me. Other gorgeous, slimmer, more toned women were around but she had this 'X factor for me' . But she is married. Which just about sums it all up. I can't keep socialising either because it's so obvious to everyone (husband included) that my heart beats for her. And this makes me appear more than odd and I hate myself for maybe hurting her husband who seems a great guy but when she comes anywhere near me I'd walk straight off with her if she asked me to - which isn't likely but everyone can tell ! I'm aware of it but can't seem to contain it. I think part of it is never having been in love and feeling it might never happen - always playing by rules and suppressing emotions. And now most peoples emotions have matured to a level I've never been at I'm feeling like a fish out of water in all sorts of situations. That really hurts!!!!!!
Ironically I was always the most sincere friend to whoever and careful not to hurt others feelings or appear distant from friendly people. Now I can sense myself being what I'm not unintentionally but in a way which mainstream peers are uncomfortable about or dislike me for. Pheewwww! Tough this!
This is the space some of us are living in - any relationships have this surreal distance or intensity which we feel appears skewed to others. What to do about it I wish I knew!
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JW CONFUSION
by logic inthis is real doublespeak: watchtower april 1, 2007 pg 21 par.
1 "you must not let people call you leaders-- you have only one leader.
matt 23:10 .
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The WTBTS claiming that it's divinely inspired implies in the psyche of new members (and likely those born to it) that it is the only leader on planet Earth. How was it then that I was baptised before I knew I could not chat with and try to reconvert apostates rallying at a large convention? And then being reprimanded was like a punch in the heart coz I'd just pledged my soul to something, full of evangelizing spirit and got a drumming for it-under pain of expulsion. I felt 'Am I a sucker?' How could I not know what I should do? - but maybe my wife had most of the info from all her meets with the sisters n brothers through the day whilst I was bustin my ass bringin home the bacon (though I'm now vegetarian) .We got baptised together but I know now that we each had a completely different take on it all. And I was the spiritually weak one obviously coz I then started askin more 'why's?' -I mean who wouldn't? N' I reckon she was takin all sorts of advice since she wouldn't talk stuff through with me which hurt and controlled me with doctrines already cemented into my brain -what a weird 20yr marriage that became -A hell on Earth in my head! Ahhhh -let me off this island!
Which leads me into thinkin ; If there is a truth it's in you somewhere - that's where to look. Which is a chip off: Buddhism really - or what Jesus advised way back or just plain what feels right and happy.
Cant wait for my girl Friday.
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What would you say to God?
by gumb inwhat would you say to god?.
god: is there anything you'd like to say to me?
god: is there anything you'd like to say to me?
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Mmmm an interesting one.
Think I'd ask.............
Did you really want us to pass that multiple choice in knowing who you are without you sitting us all down and teachin us first?
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Does this scare you?
by Mile 0 ini've been hearing more and more talk from the christian right on cable evangelical tv that i find particularly disturbing.
i actually heard this evangelist suggest that a nuclear strike by israel/u.s./britain against an arab/muslim country would be a fulfillment of the revelation prophecy about "the eyes rotting out of their sockets" etc.
i guess i just don't like the idea of influential tv evangelists endorsing what would i would call the launching of ww3.. do you think a pre-emptive strike against iran would be seen by the christian right as the beginning of the big "a", led by israel with backing of u.s. and/or britain, in fulfillment of bible prophecy?.
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Que Sera.
If any prophecy in any book from any decade in human history has correctly predicted what is gonna happen, it's gonna happen just like the sun rising tommorrow or a tsunami somewheres. Spendin all your esteem worryin if is just suckin all your emotions into a black hole. If A does happen d'ya think he''l be more pleased with those who spend ages dwellin' and worryin' about it than he will with those fun happy full of life characters amongst us who don't give their neurons a hard time?
P.S.A letter to myself as much as anyone!
Difficult to get all this doomsday stuff outaya system when you don't love your reflection -which is another story!
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Nice welcome. Hope to be back on soon. More of you here from the UK. I was even beginning to talk with a US accent as well as phrase my posts that way. Keep hittin' myself just to remind me I'm British. Whereva yar from we've all been somewhere we're not - so I'll just get of my horse and drink my milk! C y'all!
Buckets of lurv!!
Ray
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Hi crumpet
Just ran for the butter coz it tastes so much better don't you think?
Anywayz I'm finally gettin the feel of this site, as with a few others they're new to me and touchdown came when I got online a week or so ago.
Whoever the hound is -Hi there!-
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My self-worth does not actually depend on another poster's opinion of me.
by Frannie Banannie ini've been trashed and bullied by one poster for posting info off the internet that i was offering to someone in need of hope.
i began a thread on the subject of whether it is right or wrong to offer hope to someone in desperate circumstances in order that the poster could see that theirs wasn't the only opinion of any value.
while most who responded were in agreement with the validity of being encouraging and offering hopeful info that can be looked into or not, it's the viewer's choice, that poster has continued his bullying, stating that i'm mentally, literally incompetent, basically stupid and irresponsible, though i'm so incompetent that i shouldn't be actually held accountable for my well-meant ignorance.
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Teacher once told me less than 10% of people really try to understand.
Most jump to conclusions coz that's how they're conditioned from way back.
Few will change whether you're in JWO or outside.
It's the way we tick!
That 90% are everywhere in different measure.
Ain't it the same the world over?
Everybody's talkin all this stuff about me........
And life's too short to waste our esteem on changin their minds (as we all know)
Those who don't search for your heart! Sad really.