sorry to hear the shit you're in.
change doctors if he sucks...some doctors are arrogant bastards. is it a psychiatrist who is prescribing your meds? i have a psych who prescribes, i let me doc know what i'm taking adn then talk to my therapist every week.
one of the huge changes in leaving is the social change, having 100's/1000's of "friends", down to 0 when the shit hits the fan. i faded, didn't do anything wrong, but the minute my friends found out i was missing meetings and i grew an evil goatee, it was all over, i was a hired hitman for satan or something.
the shit hit the fan for me when i realized not one of them were my friends for a second if i wasn't active....even people who i had just stood up for in their weddings.
it's hard to build trust again.
i took acting classes, writing classes, stand up comedy classes and made friends there, then i started working volunteer at a radio station, all stuff i was totally interested in with good hearted people who the wtbts has drilled into us all our lives that they're selfish/godless/worldly/"them", but in reality they are the ones that wouldn't drop me if i decided acting wasn't for me or if i stopped volunteering for radio.
it's so fucked up, my thoughts are with you.