((((((Hortensia)))))))
I am so sorry for your great loss. He looks like such a kind hearted man in his picture.
AWAKE&WATCHING
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Hortensia. I send love and my thoughts out to you at this time of loss.
by Sparkplug ini saw this earlier.. i'm so sorry - it must be painful for two people who love each other to have to part this way - one goes through the door alone and the other stays behind alone.
all the more because my wonderful nephew was killed in an auto accident today, a young man with three children.
death is so cruel.. and in the wake of such terrible news today, i did not miss what you had said, but rather blocked it out for a moment.
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My meeting with the elders.. I TOTALLY WIMPED OUT
by AWAKE&WATCHING ini agreed to speak to 2 elders from the congregation that i was in from when i started my bible study in 1979 to when i disassociated myself in 1990. i was in the same congregation when i got re-instated in 2001 until i got married and moved to another congregation (30 miles away) a year later.
when i left my husband in aug. of this year i had already quit going to meetings for about 4 months.
i moved back to the same town i lived in before, of course never going to the hall.. i talked to them because i wanted closure for myself and my best friend and also my husband, both of them thought if i would just have the meeting with the elders that i would be re-adjusted.
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Thanks everyone, I'm trying not to beat myself up about it.
I'm usually a lot bolder - it just seemed like a lost cause once I got there.
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AWAKE&WATCHING
Thank you for making me laugh. Your QFR's rank right up there with Wasa's Fun With Covers.
The 2 of you should collaberate.
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Do You Have Any Mixed Emotions Since Leaving The Witnesses?
by minimus ini don't necessarily look back bitterly over everything i've missed.
i feel no desire, no missing of the 'friends", the "organization", the "brotherhood".
i've accepted that life goes on and i must learn from the past.
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I just posted a topic about my meeting with the elders last night.
I miss my friends that I know truly care about me and I miss feeling like I am able to tell them the truth about how I feel.
I have a lot of mixed feelings.
Not because I believe it IS the truth, but because I wish that I didn't have to lose these people. Even though their love is conditional, I don't blame them, I blame the brainwashing.
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My meeting with the elders.. I TOTALLY WIMPED OUT
by AWAKE&WATCHING ini agreed to speak to 2 elders from the congregation that i was in from when i started my bible study in 1979 to when i disassociated myself in 1990. i was in the same congregation when i got re-instated in 2001 until i got married and moved to another congregation (30 miles away) a year later.
when i left my husband in aug. of this year i had already quit going to meetings for about 4 months.
i moved back to the same town i lived in before, of course never going to the hall.. i talked to them because i wanted closure for myself and my best friend and also my husband, both of them thought if i would just have the meeting with the elders that i would be re-adjusted.
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I agreed to speak to 2 elders from the congregation that I was in from when I started my Bible study in 1979 to when I disassociated myself in 1990. I was in the same congregation when I got re-instated in 2001 until I got married and moved to another congregation (30 miles away) a year later. When I left my husband in Aug. of this year I had already quit going to meetings for about 4 months. I moved back to the same town I lived in before, of course never going to the hall.
I talked to them because I wanted closure for myself and my best friend and also my husband, both of them thought if I would just have the meeting with the elders that I would be re-adjusted.
I thought it a rare opportunity to tell them all the dirt I found because it was not a JC, they were meeting with me as friends. Then I decided that I would put the burden of proof on them about the FDS and maybe even plant some seeds of doubt.
I know you all warned me that it wouldn't go my way but what can I say about my eternal optimism?
I love these guys and I know that they really love me too. I got there and realized that nothing I could say would get through so I said almost nothing. I prepared for this for months and never even referred to my notes. I told them my concerns about God's channel/imperfect men and took notes while they talked and that was about it. The 2 1/2 hours ended with me saying I would review the notes, yes they made some good points, of course I will pray about it and give serious thought to their counsel to return to the meetings.
My estranged husband (we drove seperately and spoke on the phone) wanted to know what I thought after we left. I told him that I knew they loved me and just couldn't tell them what I really wanted to say and that I don't even feel like I can think clearly anymore because of all the stress I've had in the last 2 years
My best friend has left me text and voice messages wanting to know how things went and if I believe it's the truth once again.
I DON"T HAVE CLOSURE AT ALL AND NOW I HAVE ONLY MADE IT WORSE.
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What's YOUR Favorite Weird Al Yankovic parody?
by Gopher inmine is amish paradise.
hilarious!.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gsfvw9xxony.
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AWAKE&WATCHING
This man is a GENIUS ! I love him.
White and Nerdy just makes me LMAO. Donny Osmond kills me every time I watch it.
BOB is hilarious. Go hang salami I'm a lasagna hog.
My grandson is a big Star Wars fan so I really enjoyed The Saga Begins.
Amish Paradise is a classic. I loved the kid burning in hell. Too funny.
E-Bay very funny, WANNA BUY a kleenex used by Dr. Dre !
He's a genius I'm telling you, a GENIUS.
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Out of the ordinary sacrifices you've made
by REBORNAGAIN inwhat kind of unusual sacrifices did you make as a jdub?
i knew a sister who avoided nail polish because a householder didn't like it.
she wanted to please the lady.
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I sacrificed my daughter and our relationship because I was constantly trying to get her to do things "pleasing to Jehovah". She was getting the opposite from her father and every other relative so it screwed with her head pretty badly. Similar issues with my son.
I hate myself for allowing that to happen.
I quit a good job so I would have more time in service, I decided not to take the college classes that I was looking into when I began my study. I have let health issues slide. Time and money as well. Nothing really matters to me though except the damage to my children.
Have I mentioned that I hate those bastards?
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I got a new kitten
by noni1974 inthe kitten is sleeping.he's tired from all the playing he does.. .
the kitten is reading and posting on jwd.. .
no i'm not keeping him.i named him trouble.i'm just going to take care of him till i can get him a good home.. .
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AWAKE&WATCHING
I see how it is!
Poor, poor Apostakitty roaming Hocking Hills looking for Noni to cuddle with.
Do feel guilty yet?
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AWAKE&WATCHING
You are HILARIOUS ! GOOD WORK !
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Help needed desperately !!!!!
by confused and lost inhi,i have just registered here because i need someone to talk to in a way that wont end me up before a jc.i have been reading a lot of stuff recently about the wts being false prophets and the like.i also hate the fact that there are so called "spiritual" men out there who abuse their positions to molest children.i have been a witness now for 20yrs but instead of feeling spiritually alive i feel totally and utterly confused.i do not know which way to turn.anyone out there who feels the same ?
share your thoughts with me ..please and help me unburden myself to someone.
thanks for reading.
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