thank you all for your kind thoughts. There really is value in this site. I have survived a very difficult week, and yes as you can tell from some of my posts I am pretty unstable right now. someone said they were going to post a series on married mixed breed as in wife still diehard, and me emerging.
I would really like some input on meeting attendence. Do I go occasionally to see a very few old friends, and to be with my wife? Just how does this FADE thing go anyway? Of course If I am branded apostate, like so many of my dear friends have done, I think I'm like marked. also will my well established mental/emotional problems force elders to back off. I am not ashamed of anything I have said or done regarding JW"S.