Oompa, at this point, you seem to be able to hold it together better than I would.
Anyone who says that word might as well refer to my personal friends as losers or pond scum because that's what I think people really mean when they say that, so if you remained calm after hearing that, you are doing better than me!
I go for long walks at least 3 times a week . Many times with a long term friend. It's a healthy escape. I treat my body as best as I can. Booze is seldom on my mind unless offered by someone. You need to walk away from that and maybe get a membership at a gym?
Maybe you should have a heart to heart with your spouse. Find out if there is any love left for you. I personally wouldn't waste any more time with someone who pays way more attention to the Jehovah corporation than me. If she is truly lost in it, then you should find friendship elsewhere.
Do you have kids? That brings a whole different perspective to this. Most here probably would suggest staying for the kids. I would agree. But if there's nothing left and splitting assets are no problem, then the inevitable might be the solution.
I am not sure if I could live in such misery for the rest of my life. It also depends on your age. 30 and under, pack your bags. Over 30, find some common ground.
Good luck. Bill.