she is twenty.. as a teen i was very aggressive in her getting taught from the live forever book, om.
she studied my book of bible stories and young people ask!
she was obediant and compliant.
Hi Purps,
I understand what your daughter is going thru. I am happy to see that you have been there for her. That must be very important for her. I also have gone thru several issues espcially while being a dub. I am happier now and I also see that happiness in my children. Thank you for sharing your story.
Lulu
i sort of miss it.
though i am not missing the dc's, though i wish i could.(pun).
share you memories of the dc's held at the astrodome.. i alway sat in the grey sections.. i remember hearing about an attendant decking some one on the field during a baptism.
I went to a Spanish International assembly. Lots of people. I enjoyed it but now i know i was blind.
Lulu
in time, slowly and inevitably, a lot of jws will realise that they have been conned.
they may deny it at first but eventually a substantial amount will discover that they have lost their lives, their talents and their potential to of all things, a book publishing company!.
so, what will their reactions be?
How do you guys get copies of the watchtower? I know my mother keeps them out-of-sight. I know there is other literature that is for supposedly their eyes only etc.
Lulu
just got back from the doctor and he was alarmed at my liver function test.
he sent me for an ultrasound of my liver and i'm being tested for hep.. problem:.
my drinking way too much is because i have a hard time dealing with wanting to leave the 'truth' but can't.
Please go to AA we are here for you. I think it will greatly help you.
Hugs,
LULU
p.s.-my sister said you jw's arent supposed to go to AA. They are supposed to go to the elders.
ok so its only october so maybe this is a bit early.
but for me this is my 2nd year out of the org and i am looking forward to celebrating it again this year just like last year.. isn't it geat that we can join in with this celebration with the rest of the participating world!.
and no guilt feelings of being involved in a pagan celebration, over-indulging a bit, getting drunk a bit and enjoying yourself.. will this year's christmas be a first one for some people here since they have left the org?.
this is my second. we are putting up a tree and everything.
is there anyone on the board who is celebrating halloween for the first time this year?.
this is my 2nd halloween i am doing since leaving the borg (almost 4 years ago now), but it is the first time i am decorating the outside of my home as well as giving out candy.
i hope some jdubs come by and work my street during the halloween season.
sorry didnt know what i did the pics came out too big. sorry
is there anyone on the board who is celebrating halloween for the first time this year?.
this is my 2nd halloween i am doing since leaving the borg (almost 4 years ago now), but it is the first time i am decorating the outside of my home as well as giving out candy.
i hope some jdubs come by and work my street during the halloween season.
My kids are going as a zombie doctor and freddy krugger. i think that is how you spell it. they had alot of fun. we carved a pumpkin too.
Lulu
below is a copy of the e-mail my sister sent me.
i had to make arrangements for my kids to be babysat somewhere else until after the wedding.
there little hearts are broken.
Yep, I have to talk to my dad and see if he is going to walk me down the aisle. If not I am getting my uncle as a back up.
" it is never too late to be what you might have been".
i read this today and thought of you.
purps.
"A sandwich just isn't a sandwich without the tangy zip of Miracle Whip" ---ha ha ha
below is a copy of the e-mail my sister sent me.
i had to make arrangements for my kids to be babysat somewhere else until after the wedding.
there little hearts are broken.
I think my mother did some work on her. She said that she is doing whatever she thinks is right to be happy on her wedding day!!! She also told me that she wants to see our sister in the "new system of things" when she is resurrected. She asked me if I didn't want to see her? I told her I did not believe the way she does and that I never had. I told her I just went along with everything to make my mother happy. Anyway, she said that she loves me and that she always will. Whatever, I was so pissed off yesterday. Today I am actually relieved. I am getting married next year and my fiance' and I have a lot of planning to do. I know you guys don't know but my sister had a brain tumor. The gave her "red blood cells" during the surgery which let me know that she wanted a blood transfusion "in the event" well anyway she died because she aspirated vomit to her lungs. She had no control over half of her body. the rest of my family was really upset because the Dr. said the last thing they could do was give her a blood transfusion and wait. Needless to say none was given until I asked the doctor to show us any document with her handwriting showing otherwise. That was shown hours later and she passed away. Of course my non J-dub family was really upset and they said alot of stuff to my mom and others. Of course, I would have reacted the same. I was just a zombie during the whole thing. I finally decided to go to school get a job and leave my controlling husband and the organization. I did it all at the same time and I recieved counseling. Well I can say that I am really happy now except for the fact of me watching my sisters and my mother letting themselves be controlled. They are letting themselves be brained washed. I am glad I never let that get out-of-control on me at least as a parent. My kids are happy and now they look at my mother and sisters as people "who don't know any better" They are upset about the wedding but they also say they would never want to be controlled and taught how to hate. I think it upsets my mother that I have not gone back to the organization because of the fact that the Elder who spoke to me about my wicked ways reassured me that in less than a year I would be crawling back to the congregation asking for forgivness. That only in the organization would I find true happiness etc. And that my children would not respect me. In my opinion they act better then they did before. I am talking to my dad about the whole thing and I will ask him if he plans on attending my wedding because I know my mother and my sisters will not go. I will just be wondering if he
will be their to walk me down the aisle. If not I have a back up. Thank you guys for all your support. I have finally found a place to vent and share my feelings. I really need the support. I will keep you posted on the wedding, and on my wedding plans.
Lulu
